Op tomorrow and feeling calm , which worries me , when will this all hit me ? First routine mammogram on 13th May , called back , biopsies ( eye wateringly painful) hormone negative grade 2 invasive ductal 3 lumps (at present could be grade 3) I’d not spotted (can feel them now !) Know I’llbe having chemo , the rest is unknown . I just feel like I should be more emotional . Anyway having a final bath with both boobs , no recon for me for now. Will it hit me or am I just being pragmatic ?
Good luck Annie,we all deal with this differently no right or wrong way.You have no choice but to get on with it do you ,I was remarkably calm in the beginning but had sporadic meltdowns ,sometimes at the most inconvenient times !!Hope all goes well for you tomorrow .Jill
Really feel for you Annietre.
Sounds like you are being completely pragmatic about the situation. You know that you need the mx, and for the moment that’s enough to contemplate I guess.
Not that it’s much comfort but at least you are getting treatment and surgery promptly and maybe the SNB will be clear.
Big hug to you. Good luck.
Hi Annie, like they said, everyone deals with things differently.
I had my Mx and SNB last Thursday, with just 2 weeks between results and that. I think I only cried once - most of the time when I told people, I was the one consoling them!
I’m very positive and a fighter, so I thought I was a bit strange too.
It hit me afterwards, because I didn’t know what to expect visually (I then confronted the consultant and now have a ton of info). And in the end having a meltdown wasn’t so bad - I really needed it!
If you’re like me, the worst bits are when you forget you had it, then you look down and remember.
Or when you actually feel an itch and discomfort on the breast that’s no longer there…
I have to get used to things happening in ‘weeks’ and ‘months’ and not just ‘days’ - must rest more…
Good luck!