my journey for now is almost over

Today is the end of my rads , one week short of 3 months i have reached the end of my journey , i dont know how i feel ? i should be jumping for joy yet my emotions are pretty mixed today . its been one heck of a ride emotionally and i know i was one of the lucky ones having caught it early, i think i will always carry the fear of "what if it comes back " but i know that somewhere along the line my life will return to normal and i have to try and put the worry behind me , to all you amazing ladies on here ,i wish you successfull treatments and long happy lives , thank you all so much for my peace of mind - knowing if i fell you were there to catch me , you truly made my journey an easier one and the knowledge that i could ask anything and it was understood helped me on my low days and some of the threads made me laugh when i didnt think i could laugh again , thank you girls - you are amazing inspirational people and i couldnt have got through without your support , i shall look in now and again and see how you are doing but i truly hope that i shant see myself back on here with another story to tell xxxx

Hi Trish, all the best for the future, love junieliz

Hi Trish,

So glad it’s done and dusted. Think of it this way: your life is THE journey and after a little pitstop to have your wheels put back on youre back to it.

Best of luck and pop back next august to share all of the loveliness you’ve enjoyed in the previous 12 months.

Xxx

Congratulations of finishing Trish, I’ve also finished my Rads today, and feel exactly the same as you. I now have 5 years of Letrozole and check ups and also hope that it doesn’t come back.
I’m not leaving the site for a long time yet, as I feel I have made to lovely virtual friends and enjoy posting and reading whats going on, so sorry ladies but your stuck with me for a long while yet.

Well done both of you for finishing, but don’t be too hard on yourself if the realisation of what you’ve been through comes and smacks you round the face in a couple of months. Some people breeze on with life and just “get back on the horse”, others find it’s very tough to do and they need some help.

I’m not saying you should wait for it to happen, but be aware at the very back of your mind that it might, and that it’s not because of any weakness on your part but because you’re a human being.

i cried after my last appt this morning ,it almost feels like i am letting go of the safety net ? everyone i know ( who hasnt had cancer ) think i should be celebrating but i honestly dont want to yet , tamoxifen now for 5 years so i think i shall stay on the site , this part i dont want to say goodbye to yet , its so good to talk and while everyone arounds me goes back to normal i can still voice my fears or share my joys , so saphy looks like i too arent ready to leave just yet xxx

Well done to both you girls.It must be great getting to the end of your treatment.I cant wait but in a funny way i am scared too as you say trish it must feel like letting go of the safety net.
I am triple negative so after chemo and rads there is nothing else for me and it scares the hell out of me.
I think all of us will never forget what we have been through and we have all been helped along the way by some wonderful people on here ,without them life would have been even more unbearable.You seem to have a positive attitude so well done and i wish you girls all the luck in the world as you move on.
Love Sharon xx