Hi, was diagnosed with fibrous mass tissue 2007, again in 2013 after mammogram told the same and treated the discomfort and pain accordingly.
July this year, noticed the slight change in shape with a dimple and creasing in said breast. Experiencing a lot of discomfort and tenderness Terrified I saw my dr who sent off an emergency referral, which was through in 10 days… After hours at hospital, mammogram, ultra sound and needle tests I saw consultant (who was escorted by a breast nurse and I knew things looked bad!). My husband and I were shocked to the core when she said I needed core biopsy (which I had last Wednesday) through the tears I heard her say, 2 cm suspicious area… Don’t think it’s in lymph, mentioned lumpectomy then said was unlikely due to the pulling crease and then said the word that I really broke down to… Mastectomy!
I am sooooo scared! I’ve great support from hubby (though he’s hiding his worries well for my sake). My husband has just been posted a four hours drive away, though they’re understanding and I’m lucky that he can come back whenever I need him.
I’m 49, have two grown up kids, (my son lives near the hospital I have to travel to in Aberdeen and my daughter us about to go to Uni, in Aberdeen) who we’ve told about the suspicious area but not about treatments mentioned yet, only that waiting for results of biopsy.
I’m going to work, smiling, being ‘normal’ getting on with things and my close colleagues, who I’ve spoken to, keep saying how well I’m coping but once home behind my door I break my heart at the thought of what I’m going to be told! I’m in denial in work.
I’ve got nervous fluttering what feels like my heart but told its nervous stomach and a lump I can’t get rid of in my throat when I swallow!
Ive read some threads which have given me hope and know there are many many worse off than me…
waiting for the consultation appointment is awful, part of me hopes its on mat when home then I’m relieved it’s not!
Any advice on what I should be asking when I meet with the consultants (told I’d see a few next visit, from surgeon, consultant, reconstruction and nurses?!) will be greatly appreciated.
I can’t bare the thought if losing my breast, terrified of hospitals!
Please help me get a grip of this!