New year new me?

Happy new year everyone!! Don’t know what’s wrong with me today woke up in a right funk!!! Feel really down this morning and cannot get into the let’s make this the best year vibe!!! I’m really weepy too. Didn’t go out last night as hubby is working today so sloped off to bed early but couldn’t sleep for all the fireworks!! I’m glad to see the back of 2018 with all that entailed but for some reason I’m scared of 2019! Back to work tomorrow so guess I will have to get my game face back on!!! Missing my kids as they are both away doing their thing and missing my dear departed Mum. Sorry to be a debbie downer xx

Hi Alibobs, I understand how you feel and sending you a big hug x I’m finding it quite hard that everyone expects me to be back to normal now that my treatment has finished. A friend helpfully said to me a few days ago that I need to put it all behind me now!!

My mum died over 21 years ago, but I found I really missed her this Christmas. I’m fortunate that I still have my dad and I’ve felt like a little girl again at times when he’s told me not to fret and everything will be alright. (He’s 91!)

Don’t feel like you’re a ‘debbie downer’, that’s what the forum’s for xx

Alibobs

 

You are definitely not a debbie downer.  I am sure we can all relate to having these moments and how you are feeling.  New year always makes you reflect on things and there is always the fear we have about what has happened to us which rears its head from time to time.  Thats the beauty of this forum, we really understand each other.

 

Sending you loads of huggles

 

Helena xxxx

Alibobs I think secretly a lot of us may have felt some of the emotions you are experiencing today I was a proper party pooper yesterday went to bed didn’t celebrate I totally get the nervous feeling about what the year will bring last New year I was having rads and felt like rubbish and my oh couldn’t understand my lack of enthusiasm!!! This year although I feel blessed I’m alive and well I felt detached from the celebrations xx I’m missing my dad x

Now the celebrations are over I feel a lot better I think as Helena said this is a strange time of year it can stir up all kinds of emotions hopefully everyone is feeling better now it’s all over (festive period) and looking forward I finally decided once the weather starts to improve everything feels better thanks for the hug Jencat!!! I’m going to clear away the cobwebs with a long walk xxx take care ladies x

Thank you so much all of you!!! I feel so much better now. Its good to know I’m not alone with my feelings. Now I’m back at work and sort of normal again things feel a little better in general. I simply cannot wait for Spring to come either. Not long now! Ladies you are all wonderful! Thank you for your replies and God bless you all ???

Sending you hugs & hoping that 2019 will bring happy times & smiles. x