Newly diagnosed and scared!

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Hi all, I have just joined as I need some inspiration as I am really scared.

 

I am 53 and had my first mammo 3 years ago.  I had my second one in June and I got a letter saying I needed to go for further investigations.  I went to the Breast screening clinic and saw a small white circle on the x-ray.  I had a biopsy via ultrasound scan.  The doctor could see another dark spot which she wanted to get information on.  I was put on the x-ray machine for them to try and biopsy. Poked, proded, moved, spiked but they couldnt get to it.  I was sent home to wait a week for the results of the successful biopsy.

 

When I went back they confirmed that I had a cancer, approx 3.5cm.  They again tried to biopsy the second bit. More poking and proding.  They thought they had it, took a biopsy and put in a marker, when viewed on the x-ray, the marker was nowhere near.

 

The Dr said that I could go for surgery on the one bit but if it turned out down the line that the other bit was cancerous too then I would need surgery again.  She advised that I have an MRI to try and identify the other bit.

 

I had to wait nearly another two weeks to get details of MRI appointment.  I am a large lady and when I went for MRI, the machine was too tight and it didnt happen.

 

I had an appointment with a surgeon last Thursday and he was lovely and gave me the option of going for a mastectomy or trying to find out what the second bit was and if it was benign then I would only need a lumpectomy.  They asked another local hospital who I believe has a bigger MRI but they said no.  Who knows why, maybe they couldnt get me in in a timely manner.

 

The surgeon went back to the Breast screening department and they decided to try again to get a biopsy.  Lying down in the most uncomfortable position imaginable they finally, after about an hour of trying, managed to get a biopsy and they put in another marker, which I believe is in the right place.

 

I have an appointment this Thursday for the result.  Currently waiting to find if I need a lumpectomy or a mastectomy.

 

I have no idea what kind or stage it is.  I am having major what ifs.  How and when will I find out what kind it is.  How and when will I find out if it has spread.

 

I just needed to get this out there to people who actually understand the words I have used.  Family and friends are very, oh you will be fine, but will I?

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Hi FionaJMD 
 

Firstly, welcome to the forums, I’m sorry to read of your diagnosis, the first few days and weeks are always difficult when coming to terms with things.

Whilst you are waitng for the other users to reply with their support you might find it helpful to order the BCC resources pack. It has been specifically designed for those newly diagnosed and contains information to help you better understand your diagnosis, test results and the various treatments available. If you would like to order a copy just follow the link bellow:-

breastcancercare.org.uk/information-support/publication/primary-breast-cancer-resource-pack-bcc145

You might also find it helpful to talk things through with a member of staff on the BCC helpline.  Here you can share your thoughts and concerns with someone who will offer you a listening ear as well as emotional support and practical information. The number is 0808 800 6000 and lines are open weekdays 9-5pm and Saturday 10 to 2pm.

Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator

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I completely understand but they certainly not giving up on you I take my hat off to all the medical staff and thank god for mamograms
I didn’t know i had lump better to get result now than later. I’m sure you will be fine and I hope I will be too. Your friends can’t find words that’s all. I keep being told I’m strong but I just like jelly inside.lets be positive x

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Fiona,I have replied to you on the just diagnosed thread.