Good luck with the surgery on Monday. I am in a similar situation, only just been told that they found a lump from my last mammogram and am waiting for the results of the biopsy. The consultant told me that he is confident I have cancer and that when I go back for my next appointment he will have a treatment plan ready for me. Until then I am floundering, scared, panicky and worried that the results will show something much worse.
Big long-distance hugs. I really feel for you. Looking back from the great distance of 14 months, I think this early diagnostic phase is probably the worst out of the whole thing (and I had a lousy time during chemo!). Like you, I had a series of announcements, each progressively worse, and I actually spaced out - I couldn’t take any more in so I asked no questions, let them get on with it and dealt with what they threw at me (their terminology) with a kind of numb acceptance. It really was the only way I could stay sane. It was much ‘better’ once treatment started as that seemed purposeful and I could focus on the end dates.
There are many of us who have had clear mammograms and ultrasounds, yet still been found to have breast cancer lurking somewhere. I had two tiny spots on my nipple as my alert to two tumours and 19 positive lymph nodes. The reassuring thing is that all these tests locate the bu****s and surgery and a programme of treatment can then deal with them. You’ve got your clear CT scan so you can stop thinking all the terrible things and focus on what lies ahead. I hope everything goes smoothly from now on. Good luck with the surgery and make sure you do those exercises
