I’ve been reading your posts and trying to comment, but I’ve not been dealing with everything at all. Today is the first day in around 4 weeks, where I haven’t cried. I’ve been referred to a psychiatrist for long term counselling, so hopefully that will start in the New Year.
I’ve got an appointment with my oncologist on 9 Jan, and I don’t know if this is ‘has the hormone therapy worked?’ time or whether it’s ‘time to start your bone strengthening tablets’…
Needless to say I am all over the place…
I don’t really know what the point of this post was, but think just really wanted to wish everyone a Merry Xmas (or whatever celebration you have) and positive thoughts.
Sorry to read your not dealing with it all well. Theres absolutely nothing I can say that will help you but please know that myself and I am sure many others on hear are thinking of you and wishing you all the very best. I hope you start to feel better about it all soon
Hi Poannie
Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and am pleased to hear that you have got some help as it sounds like you’ve had an awful time. I know you’ll get loads of support here at BCC so make sure you keep posting whenever you want a friendly chat or cyber hug.
Rebz xxxx
Sorry you are having a bad time. I wonder if I may have some partial answers?
You said: or whether it’s ‘time to start your bone strengthening tablets’… Does this mean you have not been on a bisphosphonate? If so, raising calcium levels can affect your mood. Common syptoms of excess calcium include depression, feeling weepy, being absent minded, being unable to concentrate… does any of this sound familar? I’m sure you will feel very relieved if it turns out that it is largely a biochemical problem that can be easily fixed. Get a check on your blood calcium levels ASAP if not checked recently.
Another reason for feeling low is if everyone around you is cheerful and Christmassy and you feel you have nothing much to feel cheerful about? You get angry every time you hear cheerful Christmas pop tunes in the supermarket?
Post operative depression is also common. It can’t be long since the hip replacement and femur op? How are you coping? Presumably, you have a dose of radiotherapy along with the surgery (to deal with any cancer cells released by the surgery) and the breakdown of toxins is another biochemical reason for depression.
Poannie
Sorry to hear you are having a rough time
I know what its like feeling that you can’t deal with everything thats going on. I also feel like that most days
Counselling has helped for me - i can’t say that i have come to terms and accepted my diagnose but i am certainly trying to learn to live alongside it. I hope it works for you
So many people have said they wish for a better New year for me and my family than this year. I do to and also wish it to all my friends on this site
Jools
Hi Poannie…thought I’d put a posting out for you, wondered how you were. All the things you’re feeling right now are so normal…the secondary diagnosis is such a shock you wonder if you’ll ever stop crying or wake up without your first thought being ‘I’ve got cancer’. And the medical reasons Holey has mentioned in her post can all contribute to you feeling as you do.
Good Luck with your onc appointment…may 2008 be a kinder year…to you and everyone posting here.
Love Belinda…xx
Am so sorry to hear that you are feeling down, but it is normal and we have all been there. I have had a very emotional week this week too, and think it is part and parcel of this dreaded disease. I hope that 2008 is a better year for you and all of us.
Take good care and let us know how you are. Sending you a big cyberhug and lots of love.
Dawn
xxx
Hi
So sorry you are feeling so low. It’s as evryone said quite normal - not that that is any help when you feel like that.
try and enjoy christmas and new year - i think we all find this time of year difficult for all sorts of reasons and i think it is a good idea to get some long term counselling or whatever it is.
Thinking of you
Love Kate