Number 13 or is it l4.. tomorrow

well time is flying by and I am getting near the end of the herceptin. I had my first haircut on Saturday, Finished chemo May the 1st last year. I still have very dry skin minimal eyelashes and brows!!! which is pis…n me off. I feel like I have aged a lot since the start of treatment. I am 58 on Sunday. I read the posts every few days and follow peoples stories. I haven’t much confidence on replying to posts, wish I had. I am getting on with my life. I am reading sewing, knitting scrapbooking working walking gardening. I do get tired but it is lovely to be able to do these things. I am quite a pessimist and it is for me a case of when and not if the cancer returns. I deal with it better this way. I don’t think about it all the time and try to do a Scarlett O’Hara… I ll think about it tomorrow. Today is good and like someone said it is like parallel roads that you travel I do this, it is so good that someone said that because it describes how I feel exactly. Love to all of you people out there who are going through this. I know withoput this site I would have been so isolated. Eileen

Hi Eileen

Gosh I can’t believe you are nearly at the end of herceptin - well done you!!

Having a haircut must be nice - my hair is approx 1/2 inch all over and a horrid shade of grey - but thanks to them chaning me from taxotere back to fec - it’s probably all about to fall out again - so heaven knows when I’ll get a haircut next !

I’m so glad you are able to get on with life - it certainly sounds like you have a lot to occupy yourself with - I have my last chemo on 14th May, then start the herceptin sometime (??) after that. I’m hoping to go back to work in June - I only work part time so hoping I can cope.

I have to admit that I think the same way as you - it’s when and not if - I don’t consider myself a pessimist though (and onc agrees with me on that one!) - I consider myself a realist - there’s a difference! And again it doesn’t take over my life. I’m finding the further I get through it, the more I can put it on the back burner - but I know it’s there!

All the very best for the future

Margaret x

Hi Eileen and Margaret

I’m like you two - feel it when not if but don’t dwell on it. I had my 3rd Herceptin last Monday and time goes so quickly - too quickly sometimes.

Finished chemo end of November last year and hair has grown but not a lot. Came back grey/white, originally brown, so I am having it coloured this afternoon as we are going away next week for a week and don’t want to be grey ! I wanted to leave it and see what colour it ends up as after a couple of cuts but at the end of the day it’s going to be dark grey and nothing else so I thought I’d get it done. It needs a trim around the ears and the bottom at the back.

I am just having a cry because it was a year yesterday I got my diagnosis and I am just feeling sad this morning of what I’ve been through this last. I had a lot of good things going for me at the time (a lot of personal stuff and was moving on) then I got BC and everything has gone backwards. Don’t get me wrong life it okay but last year I was moving on. I don’t cry as much as I used to but it’s hit me today.

Margaret - hope your hair doesn’t fall out again but I think its the Tax that makes us grey so hope your’s comes back a different colour

Liz xx

awww Liz - I think you’re entitled to cry hunny. Hope you’re soon feeling a wee bit better.

My hair is kinda dark grey on the top - the bits you see when you look in a mirror - but my youngest daughter took a picture of the other day from the back - and it’s almost white at the back!!

My eldest gets married on July 26th - I so wanted hair for the wedding lol (any colour hair!!!) - however, moving back to fec is going to scupper that plan methinks…finish fec on 14th May, recovery time takes me to 4th June…then I have about 7 weeks to see how much grows haha - and what colour again!

take care
Margaret x