Hi,I was recently diagnosed, as many here, with 0 stage DCIS, and I have now had my MRI, visit with my oncologist, my surgeon and even a radiologist in the event I choose a lumpectomy. I am so lucky as my husband is a primary care physician so I have someone who can help explain percentages, procedures, etc and help navigate…making less scary. This is my problem.
In. My mind, when I was diagnosed there was no question…I wanted a mastectomy. I wanted it out and done. I’m 64. I am not concerned with having my “native breast” I have a husband who will not love me less…etc. until 2002 I had never seen the inside of a hospital not for tonsils, appendix-nothing. But since…I have had 10 major surgeries of which 3 did not have great outcomes. I have hereditary severe disk disease and arthritis that started at the age of 36. I’ve had a cervical fusion, lower lumbar fusion, bilateral thumb joints removed, shoulder rotator cuff surgery, total hysterectomy and bi later hip replacements. My left hip of my hip replacements was done with a defective part, after not healing there was a revision. That surgery resulted in an infection that put me on a PIK line and IV antibiotics for 6 weeks and blood check/draw everyday (not unlike the radiation schedule I will likely be on after a lumpectomy. My point here is my surgeon really really stressed the lumpectomy to the point that she did not even offer a mastectomy. I asked about it and she said ‘Yes, sure you can do that, it’s a big surgery…there is no guarantee that the outcome would be any better or different.but it’s an option” Then went into detail about how the survival rate is almost no different, if there is reoccurrence she can always go back and do a mastectomy then……you see I almost have PTSD. I have spent some much time over the past 18 years in hospitals, healing following up etc. what seems like a “simple return and do a mastectomy then” is what I just can’t don’t want to do. I don’t want to go to radiation every day for 4-6 weeks like I had to go to infectious diseases. I just want it gone. None of the doctors I’ve seen understand what I am saying they think I think its about survival and that I think a matectomy is a guarantee I wont ever have to do anything else. That isn’t it. I think a mastectomy MIGHT be the answer to what PROBABLY COULD be the best solution for now so that MMAYBE I won’t have to do more surgery later. Does this make any sense to anyone? So like the headline says….Am I being a drama queen ? Or are they not hearing me? Thanks for listening! Smackie