Reconstruction

It’s been 11 weeks since my mastectomy, I had the expander implant fitted.
The thing is I’ve always had a big bust and I made it known that if I was to have a mastectomy then I would want a smaller breast in reconstruction.
I was aware that if I was smaller I would wear extra padding to match the other breast until I have a mastectomy and reconstruction on the other breast.
Last week I saw my plastic surgeon and reluctantly had the implant inflated more as I had painful creases in the implant that felt sharp through the skin.
I now have a bigger breast then what I had before the mastectomy.
This is not what I wanted at all.
Although this sounds so selfish and I am so grateful to be cancer free now.
It’s going round and round in my head, I’m not sleeping well and I’m tired and ratty.
My migraines have dramatically increased too.
I have been going to the fountain centre and have had reflexology and acupuncture to help with relaxing and sleeping.
At this moment in time I’m kind of thinking that I should have gone flat chested.
Because of work and sick pay I will look at September for my next surgery, either reduced the size of my left breast or a mastectomy/ reconstruction on the right breast.
Next month I have an appointment with the genetics clinic.

Hope you can help me
Many thanks
Sandie x

Hi Hulahoop,

It sounds like this is really playing on your mind at the moment, I’m sorry to hear that and I don’t think these concerns sound selfish at all, cancer can have such a huge impact on people’s feelings around their identity and body image.

It sounds like you’re doing a lot to address how you feel at the moment, I wonder whether our support courses may also be of interest? breastcancercare.org.uk/information-support/support-you/local-support/moving-forward-after-breast-cancer-treatment

Take care, Becca at Breast Cancer Care.

Thankyou Becca
Today I received in the post classes to attend to, hopefully this will help me with my well being mentally and physically.
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