Hi everyone
This is my first post, so apologies for the rambling!
Tomorrow is my referral appointment to the breast clinic. I’ve been living with progressively worsening breast pain now for 3/4 months, and it’s now accompanied by several lumps in and between my boob and my armpit, ranging from the size of a pea up to a large marble. Before I saw the docs, I went through the usual suspects first so they wouldn’t just dismiss it, changed bra types (several times over), checked it wasn’t period/illness/injury related, cut out caffeine, but nothing helped. The pain is at the stage where pain killers do absolutely nothing, and I’m left crying in agony or feeling like I’m going to be sick 80% of my day.
My gp said she wasn’t worried about cancer (I’m “too young” at 33 apparently) but she wanted to rule it out before anything else. When I asked what else could cause the symptoms, she had no reply, and she pushed me to get an updated smear test done too even though I wasn’t due one. That’s when I really started worrying.
Tomorrow is only the start, I know that if they want to do tests, I’ll have to wait until next week so that’ll be another weekend of general panic and anxiety with every ache and pain. But my biggest worry is when I see the consultant that they will decide not to investigate, and I’ll be left in this limbo. I just want to know what is causing this, as the idea of being in this much pain for even one more week without answers is terrifying.
No one around me seems to understand why I’m so worried even after explaining it all (I’ve done a good job hiding just how bad things are apparently), and I just feel so alone.
Sorry for going on, I’m just hoping that by this time tomorrow I’ll feel a little less lost than I do right now.
Thanks for reading x