I had my up last Wednesday 4th August 2010, so far I have been on a roller coaster of emotions, It all happened so fast my feet have hardly touched the ground. D day is Friday when I get the results that will lead me down another path.
I imagine that many of you would be in the same boat as me or have been before. Now, as I wait for the next stage to become clear I have no idea what will be in store for me now. I want to know but on the other hand I don’t.
I have been reading many of the discussions, and see that there are so many varied and different posts, I wonder which category I will come into. I am on my own and have been for 8 years now, and without my daughter Andrea, and grandaughter Teri, I don’t know how I would have coped.
Hope this makes sense, and thanks for letting me ramble on
regards
Ann51
Ramble away. Sometimes you just have to tell your story to make sense of it. I hope you have recovered well from your operation and you are being good to yourself.
My op’s were in April but I still remember what it was like waiting for results. It is so hard to come to terms with largely because you dont feel ill so it is hard to predict how good or bad they will be. At least if we felt poorly we would have some idea.
I wish you the very best with your results and whatever they are I hope you have the reassurance that your medical team will have a plan to help you get through it.
It is great that you have your daughter and grandaughter to support you best wishes to them too. Please post again if you have any questions or if you just want to say how you feel. dx
I have just joined the site having just seen my GP today. I felt a lump about the size of a Maltezer in my left breast last week. I saw my GP today and worried that i were being silly! What a shock when he said there was something not right and I am now attending hospital Tuesday next week for tests! I feel numb! I dont know what to think?
Welcome to the Breast Cancer Care discussion forums, I’m sure you’ll get lots of good support from the many informed users of this site.
While you are waiting for replies I have put for you below the link to one of BCC’s publications you may find helpful to read before your hospital visit. Also, if you would like to talk to someone in confidence then our helpline staff are here for you. Calls are free, 0808 800 6000 lines open weekdays 9-5 and Sat 9-2.
I am waiting for my results due on 31 Aug, I had surgery on the 11th Aug and feel quite well from my op. Also today I feel so lonely and scared of what is in store for me, its been difficult to get through some days, I have not posted any comment before today and feel at a low point this morning like most people who are on the same rollercoster ride.
Welcome to the forum. You will get a lot of mutual support from the other forum members. Please don’t hesitate to phone the helpline as mentioned in an earlier post. They will also be able to offer information and support.
I read your post and it took me back to my early days with this rotten BC lark!
Your name reads to me as li-BRAVE-t, because this is what you are , brave.
I think WAITING is one of the most scary , demoralising and anxiety provoking activities there are, whether it is for a bus when you’re late, or a reply to a difficult letter that you’ve sent or, as you are expecting,hospital results.
I know what it’s like to be in the “waiting” game still,because my own circumstances are a bit tricky. So I have found ways to distract myself, to lessen the gap between times of appointments/scans/tests- and the eventual results.
The trick - for me anyway- is not to think about “tomorrow” too much and to focus on having a really good day if I can today… because none of us know what is in store… I find to try to live " inthe present " has helped me … as I write this I am sitting with just washed hair and planning what to do today. I will start by getting dressed, something gorgeous, and a big splash of very expensive perfume is an everyday neccesity for me.Whatever I do, I’ll have a treat scheduled into the day… watch an old movie on the DVD player with a pot of tea , proper china cup and saucer and feet up, maybe or buy a bunch of flowers - Sainsbury’s two quid… easy.
I suppose , I’m suggesting that one way of beating the waiting game is to have a strategy that pleasantly and- for me - somewhat decadently - occupies my time so that I’ve nicer things to think of and enjoy the time NOW in the here and present. Good luck with your results. Fruitgum
Feel so low got through op got a good positive results and set out on 25 sessions of radiotherapy but life turns again and partner left me on the first week of rads!