I can relate so much to the ‘who’s next on the list’. At the moment I feel i am fairly well down the list, but I also know it only takes a bad scan result to boomerang me right up to the top. That is how tenuous it all is. You know even in the best of times with this, you may only be one step away from the worst. I hate to disagree, I really do, but i think i am brave, I know what it takes out of me on occasion to get through, to pretend and not just to survive but to live, and actually I think most of us are.
How to change things? Well as many of you know my brother has full blown AIDS. He has had it for years, often he refuses to comply with his meds, recently he didn’t take them for 18 months, and yet he still lives. Why is this? Well my thoughts are it’s to do with the massive amounts of money raised by the gay community in a very short space of time, not only that, but the power they welded within the NHS. Their charitable organisations dictated the terms to the NHS not the other way around. They did not tolerate the knid of crap that we now tolerate. No-one certainly patronised them.
When my brother was first diagnosed and seemed to be dying, I could only find one funeral director - 50 miles away - who werre prepared to deal with his body. Thank god he survived, but that is an illustratio of the kind of attitudes people with his disease were up against.
I don’t much care how they raise the money that will save my life, I just want them to save it and all those like with bc.
AIDS was seen as a much more complex disease, initally they didn’t really think they would find a ‘cure’ in our lifetime, but it became fasionable, so is bc to certain extent, and again if that is what it takes, fine.
I hope this post hasn’t upset anyone, but like others i am really angry, and yes I believe we also need a ‘In Memorium’ heading here, and I do hope that there is a moment of silence in the fasion show for all those who have died. I realise i have rambled sorry