Tomorrow is the 5th anniversary of my dx with tnbc-a 2cm grade2 IDC.I had a lumpectomy[no nodes involved] chemo-fecx4 and taxotere x4 then 15 rads.Next Monday [10th] I have my annual mammo and appt with surgeon.I thought it would be nice to celebrate the 5 years so I have ordered a cream tea from an online deli to be delivered on the Tuesday[really special but naughty].Anyway I have now convinced myself that by jumping the gun and ordering this treat I will have tempted fate and the mammo will show a recurrence-a sort of punishment for my hubris.It is too late to cancel the order now and I am terrified!!Kick me someone 
Thanks
Val
Aaaw! Val! You KNOW that ordering a cream tea doesn’t give you cancer (or have you been reading the Daily Mail again!?). Here’s to a clear 5-year mammo. x
Good luck Val, you are bound to feel nervous, but you go ahead and enjoy the cream tea.
Let us know the result, we’ll be with you in spirit. xx
Consider yourself kicked val! You have done really well, and deserve to enjoy your cream tea. I guess the reality is also that the fear gremlin has come out of hiding. It’s natural… Logic says cancer cells take a while to grow and you ordering cream tea is neither here nor there. Miles of think of not stepping on the cracks in pavements when I was little in case something bad happened. Perhaps this gremlin is actually inviting you to mother/look after/pay attention to the frightened child inside. Think we all have one! Hope that makes sense… Jane
Val - Consider yourself kicked! I didn’t have you down as the superstitious type.
You are bound to be a bit nervous - I know that 5 years is quite a milestone fot tnbc - but I’m sure that it will be absolutely fine.
Enjoy the cream tea! I’ll be thinking of you on Monday - and again on Tuesday!
Dx
I’m 5 years today and haven’t got my mammo appointment yet (it’s usually in November as I had to go back in for further surgery 3 weeks after diagnosis). TBH, I haven’t really thought about it much today. I will be glad when I get the mammo over though, it’s just that little back of the mind niggle isn’t it?
I didnt think I was superstitious either till I’d pressed that ‘send’ button and panic swept over me!
Congrats cherub I just realised yesterday how close our dxs were.
Thanks for virtual kicks everyone 
valx
Now have a virtual hug instead! (((((((O)))))))
Hiya Val,
That cream tea sounds delicious - what a lovely way to celebrate! It’s normal to feel worried, but you’ll have reached a special milestone, and you deserve it.
Congratulations for tomorrow too, for your 5th anniversary since diagnosis!
With much love,
Shelley xxx
All I can add is what a lovely idea…and you must blooming well enjoy it…congratulations…xx
good luck for your mammo on monday Val… and enjoy your lovely cream tea it sounds lush xxxx