Scared to death!

Ladies I dont know how you are so brave! I went to my GP 2 weeks ago with discharge seeping from my left nipple. My Doctor has taken a mamogram and there is something small behind the nipple, the discharge has shown some ‘abnormal’ cells. Im going absolutely crazy with worry. What does ‘abnormal’ mean? I am due to go for a core biopsy tomorrow attached to the mamogram since the particles are small. I’ve been surging the net - and that makes me worse. I now have some tranquilisers to help me through tomorrow.
How do you do this? I can feel my whole breast throbbing - or it may be my imagination. Im not good with hospitals - I actually fainted during the mamogram!

Hi Ruby,
I am so sorry you find yourself here with us, but welcome to the forums.
The first thing you feel are terror and shock, and that’s perfectly natural. Your whole world seems to crash down around you. But even if it’s the worst case and it is breast cancer, there is a huge amount that can be done and thousands of women are treated successfully these days.
I’m glad you have your biopsy tomorrow - not long to wait now - and that will give definitive answers, so at least you know where you stand. The not knowing is honestly much worse than dealing with bad news. I know it’s hard to believe, but true.
Have you got someone you trust coming with you to the hospital? I’ve always found the staff fantastically kind and supportive, especially if you tell them how you feel. They won’t think you’re a wuss.
I know it’s everyone’s first reaction, but it’s probably best to give the internet a rest for now! Some sites are completely unreliable and totally scary. If you have to look, use reputable sites such as Macmillan, Breast Cancer Care or the NHS website. But the best thing would be to find some company for the evening to take your mind off it. Go out or watch a DVD.
After the biopsy there’ll be another wait for the results to come back, so be prepared for that. I found the best thing was to tell a few people I trusted, and they were a brilliant support and helped me through it. Spoil yourself rotten, and be just how you need to be. Don’t worry about being polite or protecting anyone else’s feelings.
And come on here all you want and rant or ask questions or whatever. There are loads of wonderful people on here who have been there before you, and will give you support and a friendly ear.
Make sure you let us know how you get on. I’ll say a prayer for you
love Jacquie (diagnosed last year)

oh, meant to say, during the day there’s a phone helpline on this site too, if you need someone to talk to.

Hi Ruby

I am being investigated for nipple discharge at the moment (its an ongoing saga for me) but last year I had a lump with abnormal cells and calcification. I had a core biopsy which really wasnt too bad, they will give you a local anesthetic first. Mine were quite deep but the pain really wasnt too bad (I had 6 altogether) a bit tender during the night and the next day. I had my lump removed and they got good clear margins so I didnt need any further treatment.

I wont say dont worry because we all do its human nature, all kinds of things go through our heads, but you will get through it.

Look after yourself
Take Care

Yvonne xx

Hi Girls

Thanks for your replies - I cant tell you how much it means to me!
I had a lump removed in 1990 - a fibroid thing - and a cist drained about 2 years ago - all ok though.
Now, this feels so different. There is no history in my family - but hey, someone has to be the first!

Ill let you know how I get on… and if I faint, as usual!

hi ruby
good luck tomorrow,will be thinking of u and hope yr news is good

god bless and take care

Hi Ruby

I am posting to let you know the details of our confidential freephone helpline, kindly suggested to you by Jacksy. You can contact one of our helpline team, which includes specialist breast care nurses and volunteers who have had an experience of breast cancer themselves, for support and further information on 0808 800 6000 Monday-Friday 9am-5pm and Sat 9am-2pm.

Best wishes

Hi Ladies
I had my core biopsy yesterday. Im a bit sore today. I was scared - but that part is over now. Now its the waiting that is worrying.
I found out a little bit more anyway, which helped - I have calcifications at about 6-7 o clock. I guess reading this forum I know what they will say!

hi ruby
hope yr not too sore,some paracetamol and a bottle of wine will help.
good luck with yr results and i will be thing of u.
take care

Hi Ruby

Just wait to see what your results bring babe x things can look so much better when u have had a good nights sleep.

thinking about you

Kayty x