Scared

Hi,
My name is Rachel and I’m 30 with a 3 year old and a 1 year old. My mum and her sister both had breast cancer in their 40s and so I was referred last week (weds) to meet the family specialist at the Breast Clinic. They were very thorough and decided after getting all my family history to give me an ultrasound.

Anyway, they found an area that they are unsure about… worst nightmare. They have done a needle biopsy and I should find out the results tomorrw. Originally they said I would be able to find out on Friday and psyched myself up for this and found out as I phoned up that the results werent ready yet… nightmare again!

I am very scared,. I was 13 when my Mum was diagnosed and found it very scary… she went through it a 2nd time a few years ago. I am petrified of facing it myself… Particulaly as my children are so tiny. I am scared of how I will cope with treatment and also scared of what the lump is - how long has it been there? Is there cancer anywhere else?.. I’ve been trying not to think about it much this weekend, but cant really help it.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!

I wish I could offer words of comfort, there’s no deniying it’s scary and the waiting is the worst. Make use of all the support from the Breast Clinic and of course this site. I wish you all the best of luck for tomorrow, take care
Marita x

Hi,

Just adding my good luck for tomorrow.Its hard,all the waiting but its better to know and deal with it if it is bad news.(which fingers crossed it won’t be)
While waiting on my results (radiologist who did my ultrasound said “it looks malignant” thanks mate!) I knew I had cancer so feared the worst.
My results were good all grade 1 and no nodes involved ,I have had surgery and just have tamoxifen for 5 years.
Hugs
Dot
xxx

Thanks for your comments.

I am hoping its a fibrodanoema… fingers crossed!

if it is cancer i have a lot of people that will support me (hopefully) and i suppose at least i have seen my Mum and Auntie go through it successfully.

Think its going to be a long day!

Hi Rachel,

I just wanted to wish you all the very best for your appt tomorrow. I really hope that the news for you is good and I’ll be sure to keep everything crossed for you. What time is your appt?

Hopefully the news for you wil be good, but you know where we are if things turn out to be not so good,

Take care and be sure to let us know how you get on,

Kelly
-x-

Hi Rachel,

The waiting of the unknown is terrifying. We all here hope that you get goodnews, but if not, your mum did it and so will you. My children are also tiny (2 and1 yrs).

K

Hi rachel,

Just wanted to let you know that i’m think of you. Keep us posted.

K x

Wishing you well too Rachel. x

Thinking of you Rachel, and hoping it was good news,
Ax

Hope you get good news. Vicky X

Really hope you get good news xxx Sue

Hi Rach,

It is so good to know the Dr’s are being extremely cautious and thorough. Yes it must be petrifiying but trust me if it is cancer you will deal with it and you will get through it. You have the same tough genes as your mum and sister. Also I am a true believer that as humans we have to sometimes deal with extremely unusual and unfair situations but with the right support we can get through anything!!! You have the understanding of people who love you and who will no doubt support you because they know what its like.

Good luck, thinking of you, Lipstick (diagnosed aged 35 and had the works- mastectomy, chemo, radio and hormone therapy and am desperate for children!-1st BC member of a huge family who want to keep it all a secret)