Hello Everbody
I did my second chemo this morning and its like the previous one :
no big side effects, just heat is at the strongest those days in Istanbul and thats affects me and its not new , i was allways affected by heat…
Also my blood tests came good before chemo : minimal changes. I think
this 2 liters daily of water, beta glucan, grape seed extract and benexol is helping my imm. syteme.
BUT evertime i read or remember my pathology report i am frozen,
i feel like i am fooling myself and i am at the beginning of a dark
alley with intense lymphamatic invasion and 12 pos. nodes.
Yes my onco says being a ER and PR + also HER / neu negative is a good prognosise and TAC is a very agressive treatment and i dont have to worry and internet statistics are just statistics, still i feel lost and deadly scared, because i might be one of those bad statitistic figure, and the crieteria i am in is not at all promising…
Life goes on like allways, i fell fine , meet my friends receive lots of carings and love from them and my sister and niece but my soul and my mind are in a very very dark mood…
I just wanted share…
Seda
Love and Blessings from Istanbul
Dear Seda it is still very early days for you.All of us are very frightened and go on being frightened for a very long time.All you can do is come on here where people will help you if they can and talk to all your lovely friends and family.TAC is a strong chemo and though you may feel ill for a while it will pass.You are doing all you can.
Take care
Love Valxx
Hello Seda,
ER+PR+,Her - is probably the best dx to have. Possibly 10yrs ago you would have been in trouble with your diagnosis,but nowadays we have drugs such as Tamoxofen or arimidex which do a great job at keeping hormone positive breast cancer at bay.You’ll probably be put on one of these as soon as chemo ends. When I was on chemo 5yrs ago I became friendly with two girls with a similar dx(one had 17 pos nodes,the other 9)They are both still cancer free and getting on with thier lives!
You are bound to have your dark moods - we’ve all been there.That’s whats so great about this site.There’s always someone here who knows what you are going through…and with lots of advice on problems you may encounter along the way. Good luck with the chemo - it’s not the best time of year to be on it!!..and Tac is a very good cell busting chemo - I was on it myself.
Love Josie xx
Hello Seda,
I am very similar to you in that i have 19 positive nodes and am er/pr+ her-. I dont know if i have vascular invasion, i dont remember being told and i was quite naive at time of diagnosis and didnt ask. To be honest i dont think it help me to know.
I have finished all my chemo fec/tax and due to start radiotherapy soon. I know like you that the statistics are against me and i do have dark days where i think far too much about it. However, i do try to snap myself out of it. What will be, will be. We cant change it, all we can do is live life to the full.
Good luck with your chemo and i hope the side effects are not too bad.
Linda
Seda - I know what you mean and its so hard when you feel like it - it comes and goes, sometimes I manage to forget all about things and then something triggers it back so easily and I get the “what-ifs”…take care, we’re here for you and thinking of you…mary x
Hi Seda
Sorry to butt in on your thread but I see that you are in Istanbul.
I am in kas/Antalya. If you want to chat just let me know.
Soo xx