I have bought 3 pairs of shoes this week, this made me happy.
is it just shoes or will you be working your way up your body?
I bought 3 dresses in the last week as well and don’t start me on accessories. Just because I have no hair and am feeling a bit ropey, I want to make myself look and feel as good as I can (and I sort of feel compelled to dress as nicely as I can when seeing my boyfriend even though he doesn’t expect it but right now every night out with him is a special occasion to me) and call me shallow but shopping is proving to be a tonic. I think I have got it out of my system now though.
I don’t know if anyone else is aware of a song by Paulo Nuttini that was in the top40 last year entitled “new shoes” but the chorus goes; “hey! I put some new shoes on and suddenly everything’s right” and my sister and I LOVE that song it means it is always OK to get the shoes if we see them and want them 
I never want to take away from the seriousness of undergoing chemo but I think the odd “light” discussion can be as much a help as comparing the unpleasant experiences we all have.
I am doing a few things differently since my diagnosis because now more than ever I am thinking life is for living. I was touched by the amout of people who sent me the most beautiful flower arrangements when they first learned of my diagnosis, when I came out of surgery and when I started chemo. I never used to bother with flowers I thought what’s the point when they just die in a few days, but now I buy them continuously because I have really enjoyed having fresh flowers in my living room, I don’t get expensive ones but there are so many lovely tulips in all the colours to choose from and they only cost a few quid so I experiment with different colour combinations each time. I am off to buy some this lunchtime actuallly. I mean, I would spend MUCH more money on cigarettes in my years as a smoker so why not buy flowers instead!
I also take myself for pedicures, part of it is cos I can’t be arsed any more to bend down and remove the polish from my toes, wash them and then apply new polish. And part of it is it gets me out of the house for an hour, I get to sit in a massager chair and have someone make my feet look and feel nice. I had them done properly last week but fancy a change of polish today which will be just a couple of quid.
This might make you giggle though… last week the ladies who run the nail salon, who are all Vietnamese and although they’re all lovely and sweet their English is franklky piss poor, well they noticed I had different hair (it was a different Wig of course) so I decided I better tell them about me rather than confuse the hell out of them with different hairdo every week, and one of them immediately grabbed my tit and started feeling it!! Hello!!! I had actually told her that I had had the lump REMOVED but I don’t think she got the word “removed” and she was trying to find it!! Luckily they have a young Chinese girl working there and I suspect she may have had some of her education in the UK as her Engrish is better so I kind of got her to explain it all better. Good job I am not a prude, strange lady suddenly groping left bosom in the middle of the nail bar in Croydon!
Hi clarabel34
that all sounds like good fun!
well done for keeping your spirits up!
I’ve had a bit of a shopping experience myself since starting this - but not quite on the same scale as you - have the feeling that you may be more practised than me at this …
I do think that once this is all over then I may treat myself to some new basic items as the basis of a new wardrobe - if I need any help I’ll know where to come!
I think I can feel a new dress coming on shortly although nice dresses are hard to find … then they all pop out a sale time …goodness knows where they hide the rest of the year!
keep at it if it does you good
love FizBix xxx
Hi Fizbiz
I can recommend Next they have some lovely things in at the mo. I got an off the shoulder dress and would you believe it, the side that is off the shoulder is my “good” side and the side with the strap hides my scar! I feel it was meant to be. I wore it to go out for drinks and dinner with my BF on Thursday night and I could tell his compliments were genuine and heartfelt as opposed to the perfunctionary “you look nice dear”
I don’t want anyone to think I have more money than sense, a lot of my recent expenditure took place at Matalan. I am amongst friends here but don’t tell anyone else…