So scared

Hello everyone. I didn’t think I would be posting on here again, but unfortunately I have been told there is a possibility my breast cancer has returned and gone into my shoulder, spine and pelvis. I had a lumpectomy, chemo and radio and full lymphnode removal in 2009.

The consultant says I need to have an MRI scan and some more tests, but that wont be for another 2 weeks. I’ve had a biopsy on a lump they have found in my breast and the results from that will be in about 10 days. The waiting is absolutely agonizing and I am so anxious. I cant eat anything and feel constantly sick. I just feel abandoned by the hospital and just expected to get on with life in the meantime. I’m trying to work and keep my mind occupied but I’m really struggling. I’ve discussed the possible outcome so far with my 2 children aged 25 and 29. The 25 year old has mental health issues and has said he doesn’t know what he will do if its bad news. I’m scared for his future as well as my own and my family being without me. I know this sounds dramatic but I have so many bad thoughts going through my mind, which is also not helping me. Has anyone else gone through this too?

Absolutely know how u feel iv just been diagnosed with brains Mets had breast cancer last may done chemo surgery and radiotherapy the hardest part is telling the family and the uncertainty I have also had to wait for scans and still waiting to see my own oncologist so apart whole brain radiotherapy I’m not sure what else I’ll b having. I am trying to keep working although only part time at the mo I cant drive which is really hard just seam to spend most of my crying and thinking the worse .

Hope we both get some answers soon i wish u all the luck keep us updated xx

Your anxiety is quite understandable and yes I’ve been through it. Somehow you will cope. In my experience it’s better when you have proper news and a treatment plan but I can’t speak for others. Thinking of you x