Hello all, just nipped in from the nursery!
Hope everyone is having a good day, sorry you are not able to be out and enjoy it MG, but good news, that you at last have a start date for your rads!
And Scaco, you’re nearly there…At least you can enjoy Easter first.
Catch you all later in the JM, she said, pulling on the rubber gloves and heading back to the labour ward!!
Wandyx
Hi PW,
I feel very much as if I can see sunlight filtering through the branches at the edge of the forest.
Tamoxifen not having any radical SEs, rads I don’t like the sound of, but its weeks not months.
I feel very lucky to have avoided chemo and to have been able to having tissue conserving surgery so that, while wonky, when dressed and particularly in slightly padded wonderbra type bras, I can almost forget sometimes that this ever happened. I think my route through the woods has been much easier than for many with chemo and mx/recon but I will go and snap off any branches that get in the way and stock the bar in the Twisted Nipple (the pub in the field beyond the woods) ready to celebrate with everyone who emerges from the woods xx
How many ducklings now Wandy? They take their time! xx
9 out, (7 in the nursery, 2 coming round in the incubator!), and 5 pecking their shells and 3 with no movement, so not sure if those last 3 are going to make it.
Thanks for asking!
Wandyx
There’s something about walking into the hospital that makes me feel less than well, and checking through the meds to see what I still have and what I need more of seems to do something to my stomach. Anticipation, I suppose, since it seems to happen every time.
The main thing that’s wrong with me is a couple of nights of not sleeping well. It’s partly the sniffles we all have, partly every ache and pain seeming worse, partly my OH snoring a lot as he also has sniffles. Honestly, I don’t know how he sleeps through it, because when my nose is blocked I wake up.
At any rate, I’ve just come in from sitting in the garden for a little while; I’ll go out again later when the sun is less strong.
I hope everyone is enjoying a little sun today. Glad to hear most of the ducklings have made it or are on their way. Ice cream sounds like just the thing.
How are you, SB? OK I hope. Remember to be all pale and wan and dying swan when MIL arrives, though.
Cheryl
Eek, got the date through for a portacath to be put in. I’m starting to hate hospitals and appointments and what they end up doing to me 
Think I need a hug/cup of tea/flamethrower against appointment letters.
Ann x
I have all of those things here for you Ann. Come sit down in the shade on a log in a leafy part of the woods. I think Cheryl’s ready for a cuppa as well. I’ll be Mum!!
Wandyx
Sorry to read some of you are having a bad time with SE.
Well done to be so near end of chemo, gives me hope.
And Wandy, I’m so sorry, I lied, just had a lovely lunch with girlfriend, and we had d**k wraps and chips, whoops.
Sitting in garden now watching the buzzards in the thermals, what a georgeous day!
Ohhh Nnnno Blue dragonfly!!!
Good job you whispered that and that my babies can’t read yet!!
Glad you had a nice lunch tho!
Wandyx
Should have known that beginning to get upset about work again was a bad sign - I am normally much more laid back than that. D**n and B***t it, started to feel very cold and shivery about half an hour ago, just took my temperature and up to 38.3…will follow the trusted route and take a nice warm bath shortly, and keep an eye on it - I am NOT going to miss my LGFB session tomorrow!
Ooh, a cup of tea sitting in the woods, just the thing! And look at all the bluebells, and those cute ducklings heading for the pond. Ahh. Hugs.
I know what you mean about hating hospitals, Ann. I’m so tired of trekking back and forth, and there is still more to come. However much you need one, and however much pain or difficulty it saves you, having an IV device makes you feel more seriously ill than not having one. But I hope the portacath makes your treatment easier and that you don’t have any problems with it.
Cheryl
projectwoman - I hope you are feeling much better - I’m sending good vibes to get your temp down. get tucked up after your bath and I’ll send over a conforting wood nymph to tell you a story and magic away any tiresome tasks you thought you were going to do this evening. I’ll also tell em all to keep the volume down in the JM.
PW - I’m really sorry you feel cold and rubbish. Hopefully your hot bath has helped - if not there’s some buzzards wandering around in thermals somewhere in the woods - they may let you borrow them.
Amber - I know what you mean about hosp appointments - one thing seems to lead to another. eat cake, it always works.
x
Whyoh why didn’t I demand a picc line…always happens when the nurse says, oh you have fabulous veins then can’t get the feccer in… 4 attempts today. Now I can’t even move my hand. Had a few tears, first time today. Had a very gung ho nurse who insisted on talking the whole way through and was so rough pulling out the cannula I yelped. Home with the boys now and have a friend up the road on speed dial if I need her…stinking headache but have managed a plate of spag bol and sipping Ginger beer.
Boys to bed then I’m hitting the sack…
Love to all xxxxxx
SB sorry it was so nasty. Least another of the FECcers done. Sending you sleep fairies and hope the hand settles down. Horrible for you
Oh dear SB, sorry you’ve had a rough ride.
I think sometimes the nurses get desensitised because they do it so much. When talking about filling the saline bag for my recon the nurse merrily explained that they would use a syringe, “Like when you have your bloods taken - so you’re used to that aren’t you.” To which i just smiled instead of saying, "Actually no - i’m not used to it. i will never get used to ‘just a little scratch’ and HATE it’.
Have a good kip SB.
I’m on Gremlin patrol tonight. flamethrower is fully sharged so please take care to guard any remaining eyebrows/lashes that you want to keep I’m taking no prisoners.
SB, hope you have a good night.
Cheryl
Night Night SaraBeara. Sorry you’ve had such a rotten time. Off you go and snuggle down. Scaco’s on patrol!
Wandyx
SB - I hope your hand isn’t too painful and the se’s behave themselves. I’ll be thinking of you, is MIL still arriving tomo? Perhaps she will have to do any chores as your hand and veins will need total rest for at least a week after today!! I hope you sleep well tonight.
Got the hickman in and feeling a bit sore but I think it’ll be better than them fighting to find a vein for next 3 fec’s. I just wish my onc would realise it’s pointless trying to have 3 week cycle as I’ve not managed it yet and it just gets me down when I end up being postponed yet again.
Been enjoying the cowslips and bluebells which are lovely down by the lagoon, thought I saw PB or maybe the eyebrow caterpillars scuttling off through the bushes, so watch out with the flamethrower Scaco.
Amber - I know the feeling and I like Scaco’s idea on the eat cake, it would go well with my head to Costa’s for coffee policy!
PW - I hope your temp is behaving itself again now and you’ve stopped shivering.
I’m off to bed, not with SB but HWB and Mr Neurofen. Think it’s going to be a quiet night down the JM.
Sleep well All - hopefully another sunny day tomorrow 
Love
xxHelenxx
If I can’t sleep again, I’ll join SCACO on gremlin patrol. We’ll see if paracetamol works any better tonight, at least on me. I don’t know what to do about the snoring, aside from elbow work.
Hope everyone has a good night.
Cheryl