Rads done first thing today. Now time for our weekend off for good behaviour. I don’t intend to be good!! I’m going to abandon the ibuprofen,it’s not helping, and try a glass of wine or 3. Might help lift the mood as well. Son who lives away, it’s his birthday tomorrow so he’s coming over to stay for the week and we are going out for a meal. Might try wearing a bra! The best news for me this week…I’ve got tickets for Take That next year. I’ll grow up one day. The oldest Thatter in town. Hope we can all recharge our batteries ready for another week. Thank you for reading my ramblings xxx
Hi Positive thinker and ladies.
Your comment about no chemo struck a chord with me. I’m loosing count of the number of people who’ve told me how lucky I am to have avoided chemo which I can’t help but agree with. But seriously I can’t say I feel lucky getting this dreadful disease. I’m sure people just really don’t know what to say and are well meaning. It’s nice to come on here to share with like minded people.
Morning ladies,
hope you all had a good weekend, and managed to recharge your batteries
Ive got evening appoitments again this week earliest one is friday at three, then apparently straight round to see the dr after that one so she can check see how im doing,
hope that isnt going to be a long wait especially on a friday, traffic will be crazy.hope your all doing ok
take care deelush x x
Hi all. I hope today’s been kind to you. I had session 9 today and tomorrow I’ll be just over the halfway mark. Hurrah! Skin a little pink and feels warm in the evening but so far so good. I’d expected something more severe at this stage just because I burn easily so I’m happily surprised. One of the radiotherapy team said that effects often start to build at the end of week two so time will tell but so far so good! X
Not having a very good start to the day so far…
Woke up with pain in my chest this morning. 
Its the side i am having treatment on but not in the area where my tumour was , its the opposite side near to the middle towards the bottom of my boob, top of my ribs so to speak, and i can feel a lump, not sure whats going on there but i dont like it. My appointment today is at 5.05 pm, so there might be a chance that the dr will still be there so going to ask the staff about it and maybe they will get the dr to come round and check it, or at least be able to explain to me whats going on. Not a happy bunny this morning, took my daughter to work and had a run in with a lorry driver because apparently i shouldnt have gone across the lights on green, lol long story but i told him ever so nicely (not) where to go, and then nearly had the fromt of my car took off by some bloke who was in the lane to go straight across the island but decided to turn left across the front of me i was in the other lane to go straight across, he wanted to turn left, what an idiot, needless to say i woke everyone up wih my car horn and sign language if you catch my drift, anyways I’m home again now having a nice cup of tea. rant over and breath . . . .
Hope your all doing ok
deelush x x
Hi Deelush
Just back from no 14 of 15 and an appt with my oncologist. I always come away from seeing her so much more relaxed. Why not give the department a call and tell them of your worries they might be able to fit you in for a chat. Derby where I go seem very accommodating. Hope you get some reassurance. This disease certainly plays tricks on the brain.
Thanks ladies ,
my hubby is finishing early today so he’s going to come with me and we are going a little earlier, i know the dr has evening surgeries on a monday and tuesday because thats when she sees patients for the first time to do consent forms etc so i beleive she will be there until half six, i dont mind waiting if she can fit me in, unless the treating nursese can offer any reassurance before hand.
and my day went from bad to worse as ive found cigarettes in my daughters work bag, to say im devastated is an under statement, i was looking for her name badge for work because she couldnt find it this morning thinking id do a good deed and take it in for her (its a big deal if they dont wear them) and thats when i found the cigarettes now obviuosly i am going to give her the benefit of doubt first and i am totally shocked but i cant beleive after all ive been going through these last nine months that ive discovered them in her bag, please let there be an acceptable excuse. . . .
Deelush
Deelush - I hope you managed to see someone about the lump and got some answers.
This weekend the uncertainty of the future really hit me. All the way through I’ve been really positive, but I had doubts this weekend and broke down on Saturday night. I know what the medical staff will tell me - your results were good, you’ve had the best course of treatment and are in tamoxifen etc but it just feels like at 33 it’s bound to come back at some point.ni suppose I had to hit a wall at some point
Hi ladies thanks for all the replies,
the nurse had a feel of the lump and said she thinks its just lumpy breast tissue, and said that the radiotheraphy has a way of exaggerating all sorts of things like tissue and nerves and pains that we wouldn’t probably notice as it does change the tissue of the breast inside. She said to see how it goes tonight and tomorrow and if its still painful tomorrow to phone her up and she’ll have a word with the dr and see if she wants me to pop in tomorrow as she will be in clinic tomorrow but if i feel ok she said to wait till friday but its my call, unfortunately the dr wasnt there tonight. So i’ll see how it goes in the morning. Thanks for listening and take care everyone.
Deelush x x
Mel51 i totally get what your saying and its something that i am sure we will all worry about all the time, but we can only hope that it never happens again and that the worry becomes less , its not easy but we have to try and be reassured by what we are told and just prey for the best. noone can truely understand the thoughts than run amuck in our minds except those of us that are in the same boat so its good to come on here and voice your feelings because we do truely understand how your feeling and why your feeling like that.
I hope you feel a little better now youve vented how youve been feeling. Please take care.
deelush x x
Mel51. I couldn’t agree more. When my doubts creep in I go back to a copy of a letter sent to my GP, saying this patient has an excellent prognosis. It doesn’t always help particularly in the middle of a sleepless night. When discussing with my oncologist today whether or not to have boosters, when she said they would only be a small benefit to me. I therefore decided to go ahead, any benefit however small must be worth it. I want to give myself the best chance of no reoccurrence. We put ourselves in the hands of the professionals and I must say I trust their opinions. I think we a so lucky the advances in treatment from even say 10 years ago. A melt down every now and again is totally understandable, especially to fellow sufferers. Hope you find some way of bouncing back soon xxx
Deelush. Pleased you managed to talk to someone and hope it reassures you. I had a painful lump in my armpit last week and was told similar things as you were told. So many changes taking place in your body. Xx
Normal rads finished today. Now FOUR days without and appointment :-). My 5 boosters are next week. My skin is just showing signs of breaking down so I’ve collected 4 tubes of Flamazine from the pharmacy today in preparation for what the radiographer says is inevitably going to happen under my boob. was hoping to wear a bra to go out in this weekend but that is looking unlikely. Running out of baggy shapeless things to wear.
I’ll stop moaning now because I’ve not had to have chemo so have hung on to my hair. You ladies discussing your eventual new colours, my heart goes out to you. xxxxx
Hi Wemblo,
In case this helps…bra which I think helped me evade splitting below boob was a very soft Bravado silk seemless (maternity) bra (available at a number of big stores eg JL and online). V soft and wide underband too. I also used a layer of soft 100% cotton t shirt material on the skin side (chopped up old Tshirt) to reduce friction. I’m convinced it helped and radiologists said I could do no more. Confess I didn’t escape completely, had nipple burn (lovely)…Flamazine was fantastic and burn just gentley flaked, the fabric layer helping keep the old skin on as long as possible to protect the new.
Hope the boosters go as well as pos.
I too escaped chemo…feel for Deelush, Forties, Sodastream and the other ladies on this strand re the hair, you should all be proud of yourselves with your hair colouring plans…the chestnut sounds good and the Pixie cut.
x Seabreeze
Sea breeze
Thank you so much for the advice, I’ve got various styles of bra for the different stages of my treatments. I’ve just had a look online and this one looks perfect I’m off t to order one now to give it try. xxx
Morning ladies,
i’m finding the comfort top type of bras out of asda for £6 each are really good, infact i bought three just to wear during my rads sessions but have found them to be so comfortable i think they are going to be my bra of choice after treatment too, thier the most comfortable bra i have ever worn. There are no straps or clasps to undo just pull them on and they have little removable pads in them, very stretchy and supportive. They do them in black beige and white which i have and also grey and pink which i intend to get £1 goes to the tickled pink charity if you but the pink one. Granted they are not 100% cotton but i figure if i get a packet of handkercheif squares in cotton i could put these inside when needed, the bra tops cover a larger area below the breast so hopefully will prevent soreness, and when i go for treatment i just slip the straps off my shoulders pull the top down round my waist and pop my gown top on easy and quick. They kinda look like a sports bra top what some women wear in the gym, but so comfy for £6 you could give one a try, i absolutely could not walk about without a bra of some sort on and these are proving to be great.
deelush x x
Wemblo,
If you haven’t ordered yet you might want to consider sizing up a tad…remaining side is 34G, I needed extra large since had to size up given cup…if around a D then prob would have got large.
Just to clarify to the lady who wrote the post this morning about cotton hankerchiefs inside the cup…the advantage tshirt material has is being stretchy you put the layer of fabric so that it comes down below the band of the bra…hence reducing friction where the band is and helping reduce skin rub burn combo.
Best to you all through Thurs.
Xxx seabreeze
Should add…given so soft and stretchy it also handles a big diff re cup size for the lopsided amongst us!
Forties - like your Thurs philosopy - thank you
X
Loving this thread. Thanks Seabreeze. I’ve ordered large and am now cutting up an old t.shirt. Hubby can have his handkerchiefs back. I’ll wash them first!!!
Forties. Thursday morning philosophy is perfect. Thank you. I often feel guilty on here when I look at what others have been through.
Me too. Happy chopping Forties! I used large squares about 30 x 30 cm to avoid rub across entire area. A few in diff sizes for ultimate flexibility!
Yes - when the chap at the MacMillan centre suggested the “look good feel better” sessions my response was, but I’d feel such a fraud since I escaped chemo… aren’t those sessions just for those who have chemo…His eyes did somewhat pop out of their sockets!
Off for meeting with fertility bods this pm…need to clear/settle my mind so I can lift the lid and start the tamoxifen…(or even open the kitchen draw and the box…)
Xxx Seabreeze