i got a call from my chemo unit today and I’m starting treatment a week Thursday…I’m not sure how I feel about it if that makes sense. I’m relieved in one way that I will be on meds but the other part of me it’s really scared and anxious for some reason. I’ve been around like family all weekend and just come home and I feel so anxious. It’s just me and my boys I don’t have a partner here, I’ve been fine all weekend and I feel like it’s just hit me all over again. I hope I pick up again, sorry to ramble on xx
It’s totally understandable to be anxious about starting your treatment, be kind to yourself and try and think that it’s the first positive step in your journey to ‘living well’ with your SBC. Have you got someone to go with you to the chemo unit? The first visit is a bit scary but in my 7 years experience of living with bone & liver mets, it just becomes part of your life & a new routine to deal with. Chemo nurses are usually really lovely and you can build up a good relationship with them. They will allay any fears you may have. Which treatment are you starting? All the very best.
It is only natural to be nervous when starting a new treatment. I was panicking when I took my first doses of Abemaciclib (same sort as Ribociclib) and panicked before having denosumab and fulvestrant jabs but I feel fine most of the time, just some stomach upsets from Abemaciclib) and carry on pretty much as normal, out and about, shopping, socialising and generally getting on with life. It is surprising how quickly you get used to the new routine of bloods, jabs, pills etc and just take it in your stride. If you have problems they can tinker around with the dose and give you side effect medications. My last scans were stable so it seems to be working for me. Good luck with it xx