Grumpy - Despite thinking you have had a straightforward time, you have still been diagnosed and gone through treatment so throw that guilt in the lake where it belongs. Hope you get some help from the counsellor and eventually get the nip n tuck you need x
Well said Pargayan! Cancer is so not a competition - thatās the whole point of this thread. No one would wish their diagnosis or side effects or whatever on anyone, not even their worst enemy. It sounds like youāver had a really horrible time Grumpy, and Iām a bit confused - people do have tweaks to nuked boobs (I was offered lipo-sculpting to make mine bigger but said no). Really hope that in time you might get closer to a matched pair (my own waiting list wait grows ever longer!).
Now then, borrow my biggest thwacking ladle and thwack that guilt right into the lake! Then reward yourself with a wee snifter or little quelquechose a manger.
Madjock - thanks so much for the lovely Āµ oooh, so what is the ASCII combination, I so love keyboard short cuts and get very frustrated with newer software that is more and more mouse driven.
Back to work tomorrow. Had a lovely break enjoying places on my doorstep 
ended up with Nardiniās ice-cream which Scottish Benchies will understand.
A mean machine in benchland? All this activity while I was away. Calory free, macaroons, carambars and wine in the benchland larder. On the relaxed bench after a three weeks break. I almost forgot about cancer while I was away until the last night, when I cried For two hours non stop? I donāt know why. Today was back to reality with herceptin, tomorrow Zoladex and next week a portacath fitted. I am back in the men in white coats roundabout. O well. I hope everyone is keeping well.
RevCat
You can get the full list of ASCII codes if you google ASCII keys.
Iām assuming you use a laptop. To use laptop keyboard
- The number lock, top row right must be on, a little light should come on.
- On your keyboard there should be small numbers on keys 7, 8. 9, U, I, O, J, K, L, M (small numbers should read 7, 8, 9, 4, 5, 6, 1, 2, 3, 0, these are the number keys you use).
- In theory all you have to do is hold down the ALT key and type the key code for the symbol you want - Āµ is (ALT 230).
This works on my daughterās laptop but not sure if it works on all. Thatās it simple pimple. If youāre using a PC with full keyboard just use the ALT key and numeric keypad but number lock must still be on.
Iāve never heard of Nardiniās ice cream, but then itās a good many years since I left Glasgow.
Sleep well.
Maggie
Just remembered - if you normally use Microsoft Word go to insert special character (symbol whatever) if you click on the character you want it actually tells you what the ASCII code is - save you reading through enormous list of key codes and just keep a note of the ones you need/want
Thanks Madjock. I have a laptop with a full size keyboard including number pad cos I dislike fiddly little keys! Nardiniās is a (locally) famous icecream place in Largs but recently opened a branch in Glasgow.
Oooh, such fun finding new and interesting symbols to typeā¦ so now I can really have music in Benchland āŖā«ā«āŖ
ho ho, hi ho, itās off to work I go
Thanks for the macaroons Vercors, my favourite! I make them sometimes at home, crikey I get in a right messā¦macaroon mixture everywhere, usually because Iām laughing at myself so much! They never look quite as good as the professional ones, but they taste goodā¦and of course the kitchen gets a good clean afterwards!!!
Hope the men in white coats are good to you
Now settled on the time for myself bench with cuppa and macaroons, the ironing can wait a while 
Back from another camping trip yesterday and everything put away, except for the bedding, which is in the washing machine! Another 11 months until I can go again :(, (all being well!) Letās hope itās a less traumatic 11 months, eh?
Rain lashing down again, so I donāt feel TOOO bad being back at home in the dry and warm (too warm, but thatās just me?? :))
Time for a coffee and a wee sit on the CBA bench for a while. This holiday lark is exhausting!
Hope you all had lovely hols/breaks, weather has been so awful. It would be lovely if we could have some prolonged sunshine, it just makes you feel so much happier.
Grumpy hope whoever you talk to makes you feel better about things, thinking of you and sending you hugs.
Iām on the āhead and stomach doing somersaults, not in a good wayā bench, was fine yesterday, today secretly screaming insideā¦the waiting begins, trying soooooooooo hard to stay well away from the CSL bench xx
Hi Revcat - yes nuked boobs can have surgery if new tissue is being used i.e. lipofill (new fat) or recon (new skin and muscle), without wound healing problems. The new tissue has a good blood supply which aids healing etc. However reduction surgery is a bit iffy, NOT IMPOSSIBLE, because it relies on stitching nuked skin together and that has poor blood supply so may have healing problems. The naughty bit is that no-one explained this to me before the original surgery and radsā¦ If Iād had double MX I could have had double recon, but because I had double WLEs tweaking is contra-indicated!!! How daft is that - the really invasive major surgery is OK but less invasive op rules out (almost) any future nip and tuck. Now I donāt believe in going down the major invasion route when it wasnāt medically necessary, and I was always re-assured that surgery after all treatment would be possible - difficult but possible. Anyhow as Iāve said Iām not angry about it now, just very sadā¦ so when Iāve cleared my mind on that Iāll be able to make a decision. Iām trying to see my lopsided boobs as badges of survival like my tattoo dots, but itās hard going.
Thanks to all ladies for their concern and support - itās great.
Will post tomorrow after Iāve seen the counselling lady, and am taking a few tinctures tonight to help me sleep.
And anyhow the Girls donāt care what Mammyās boobs look like - they just want food, walks and cuddles!!!
grumpy
Great start to the day, YD phoned and said did I know where blah, blah was, from the airport at 5.30 am, thank you darling daughter. Next went outside to put something in the bin, heard a buzzing around my ear and lo and behold a wasp!
Whacked it away and came inside, heard buzzing again it had come in with me aaaaaaaaaargh. Wasp flew to window, tried to get it out, opened the window and was swiping madly, it fell on the ground and as I bent to pick it up hit my head off the corner of the window, got wasp out, but have a giant egg sized lump on the back of my head 
!
And all before 8 am, good job Iām staying positive! xx
Good evening Ladies
Had a good session with the CancerCare counsellor today.
Realised I am STILL angry about false hopes for corrective surgery, and Iāve got to dump it before I can move on to the next bit.
And Iām so sad about it all, so I need to get a grip on that, because I canāt make a decision about what/if surgery to have while Iām in a tizz. Not good to make important decisions that canāt be reversed when my brain is all over the place. Why is it that ācancerā can mess with our brains more than our bodies???
Going to sit on the Squiffy Tincture Bench for a while, then go to bedā¦
Thank you again to all you ladies who understand and give support - itās invaluable.
grumpy
Thinking of you Grumpy and hoping you can get yourself to the right place to make your important decision, so that you do whatās right for you! Just put your health first because youāre still you - no matter what shape!
Hope today was better for you Katy. Your positivity made me smile!
Iāve just collected my next prescription for the lovely Taāpoxyāfen and itās APS this time, not Wokhart that Iāve had all the time up to now, so fingers crossed the SEs donāt get any worse.
I was a good girl and walked the mile each way to fetch my prescription (all up hill on the way!), so I now reserve the right to sit on the Paralympics bench and watch TV all evening!
Iāve cunningly recorded it all, so I can skip all the ads and incessant pontificating and nattering and actually watch the sport! I was on the FF bench last night trying to watch. !0 mins jabbering, 3 mins ads and then 10 more mins opinionating and recapping what Iād ALREADY SEEN HALF AN HOUR EARLIER, then 3 more mins ads. ARGHHH!
Going to be more chilled tonight. Pass the non-hot-flush-inducing chilled alcoholic beverage and the calorie free chips and cake!
Iām on the ālonelyā bench. where are you all?
I just catch a quick flash of blue now and again as CM roars past.
Grumpy - horrible for you - hope you feel more positive soon and can get them to do something to help you. To be led to make your decisions on certain information and then find it was misleading must be devastating.
JCJ - Taāpoxyāfen - love it,I shall always call it that now. Especially as it think itās made me sit on the ābloominā miserable benchā for nearly three days!! I am a glass half full person and donāt do depressed but Iāve had to be a good actress for the family this weekend.
Hope you all have as good a week as possible.
Helloooooooooo!! FF, Iām here, have been concentrating on my flushing abilities, have been really good for the last couple of weeks and this weekend have been flushing buckets whatās that all about???
When Iām not turning red and distinctly wet, body has decided to lower my temperature so my teeth have been chattering!
Could it have been the bump to the head??? Any ideas welcome.
Sometimes you just have bad days FF, hope you feel better soon, things have a habit of catching up with us when we least expect it, take care all xx
Hi Katy glad to see you, Sorry to hear youāve been flushing buckets. Now Iām taking the the Taāpoxyāfen ( see I told you Iād call it that from now on) Iām waiting for that to kick in.
Talking of bumps to the head, couple of months ago I left a wall cupboard door open in the kitchen, turned round and bashed into said door mopped up copious amount of blood and still have scar on upper eyelid.
Yes, Iāve had the bad days theyāre now gone Iām fine again tonight . This week Iām back at school and also back to my other job so life is now back to what it was before bc. So seven months on from dx normality? No I donāt think so, never again will I take my health for granted, every twinge will be what if?? But I will live my life to the full and enjoy it.
Obviously Iām on an upswing tonight. I reserve the right to be miserable again later!!
Ouchy Ouch FF that sounds sore, glad youāre back on the āhappyā bench tonight!!
NORMAL whatās that??? xx
Helloooo Katy and FF! I was getting lonely! Practising my flushing all by myself in Benchland! I have to remember the alligators are there, and not try to cool off in the lake!
Iām back at school tomorrow too. 2 training days before the kids return. 8-week half term so itās going to be tough for me, having only done 1 full week since February. Bit apprehensive, to be honest, but we have booked that Scottish Highlands coach trip for half term (for our 30th wedding anniversary - postponed from June because Iād only just finished rads and was worried Iād be too tired to appreciate it!) so Iāve got somethinbg to look forward to, to keep me going!
Nobody normal here!! ā¦ Thank goodness.
Thanks Katy, Yes ,Iām back on the āhappyā bench tonight Iāve a lot to be thankful for.
I donāt know what what NORMAL is , but Iāll try for it.
JCJ, never ever ever go into the lake, thereās an awful lot of guilt in there.
Where are you going?
You may pass through my city, if you see a crazy nut waving madly it maybe me xx
JCJ - best wishes to you - you will be ok, Iām sending you positive vibes. You will cope and you have your trip to look forward to, 30 years , pearl anniversary, is something to celebrate.