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Hello everyone, I’m so glad I found my way here, just reading some of the posts here has helped me enormously tonight. It helps just to know you ladies know exactly how I am feeling right now. I’m awaiting biopsy results which I will get Fri the 25th. I have been here before 18 months ago when I first discovered a lump in my right breast. I had a mammogram and an ultra sound and a biopsy and worried myself sick awaiting the results. I was told then that it was just thickening of the tissue and no further action was needed. A couple of weeks ago I noticed that the lump had got bigger and the area just below my nipple was sinking in. So today I have had a mammogram and biopsies from both breasts, apparently I also have a lump in my left breast that I didn’t notice. I have 10 days before I get the results and I am sick with worry. I have only told my other half so far and he has been great. I don’t want to tell my family yet. My dad is having heart bypass surgery tomorrow so we all have enough to worry about right now. Both my parents are 74 and a few weeks ago I just knew I would devote all my time to helping him recover but now I’m in bits. I just can’t see how I am going to cope. My dad will be coming out of hospital in about a week and I will be going for my results a few days later, how am I going to cope if I get the bad news I suspect I will. I have a sister and a daughter but my sister is a busy midwife and my daughter is at uni, I am self employed so I sort of promised everyone that I would be there to take care of dad when he comes home, how do I explain that I’m not capable of that now without having to tell them why? I feel very guilty that my timing is so bad, is that normal? Sorry for such a long post but I just needed to voice all my worries. Just writing it all down has cleared my head a little bit.

Hello pippylongstockings,
just wanted to say hello and to say how sorry I am to hear that you are having such a worrying time, waiting for results is so awful. You have come to a good place here, the people and support here is fantastic. Im also waiting for results on the 25th november too, and I just know my emotions have been all over the place. On the whole I try to be positive as that is my usual way of dealing with things, but have to say that this waiting is horrible and there are times that I have found that getting it down in writing on these forums great for that, and you are completely right about it clearing your head a little. I send you lots of luck for when you get your results, will be thinking of you
gentle hugs and kind wishes
Lille345

Hi pippylongstockings and welcome to the BCC forums

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Lucy

Hi Pippylongstocking,

In 4 months I had a biopsy, two ops, went on holiday, separated from my husband, moved home and had rads. I know it’s not the same as caring for someone but it is amazing what can be done. I had my bad days too but from some where deep inside you find the strength and energy, hope this helps ease that worry a little, take care and lots of hugs xx

Hi all, I went for a mammogram last Friday 11/11/11 and ended up with an ultra sound on my right breast, then the dr took a biopsy with a fine needle, I think he mentioned a fibroids! Then I went to speak with the Dr, and I just burst into tears (felt like a right idiot) he asked me why I was crying and could it be because my step sister had died the week before? (I think I’m probably emotional because of this plus she left her 11 year old behind and I also have children) cried all weekend, but kept myself busy at work!!! Found this site and it has given me strength! Get my results on Friday xx

Hi pippylongstockings You have my kindest thoughts and prayers, I lost my mother in July and despite a few years of dementia I now miss her more than ever but you sound like a strong woman and I know it sounds like a cliche’ but take one day at a time, I am told we will have good days and bad days but make sure you seek out all the support you can to help you and your parents