Hello Lovely ladies, How are we all this sunny morning???
Lynn, all the best for today doll, if I did it, you can, cause I am a complete wimp, couldn’t even give birth naturally, went for the sunroof option!!!Stay strong and dont leave the hospital if you feel like crap, take all the drugs going and it will be a breeze, thinking of you xxx
Ginger-How are you doing, you a wee bit more positive?? I do hope so, lifes a bitch and then you die but we are gonna give it a right good fight so c’mon and stay focused xxx
Doggirl-you make me laugh with your hoovering, do you fancy coming round here and doing mine for me, Hubby rubbish and daughters lazy, Have Dyson will lend!!!
Well, i went for the results yesterday. 3.5cm so big in my little former b cup boobie, no wonder I could feel it!!!Grade 3 Agressive but has not gone to the lymph nodes as they did sentinel node removal, so that is good. Heres the but, it is her2 positive so basically it has a higher chance of coming back and it feeds of oestrogen, not great when you are premenopausal and 36!!! But shit happens and we all have to deal with this and we will.
The surgeon says the mastectomy was definetely the right op for me and there were lots of other calcifications there. he says that there is no guarantee with anything and it was a big aggresive tumour but now the NHS would chuck everything at me.
During their meeting with the oncologist, they said that I would be the prime candidate for a clinical trial. I said is that herceptin, he said no you will get that anyway along with chemo, radio and tablets long term!!! So there is new stuff out there for us special her2+ women!!!
So basically it will probably mean now that i wont be treated at my local hospital and will go to the velindre in Cardiff (cancer hospital)so i think that is good. Read a bit about this HER2+ stuff and am now going to phone the breast nurse and put in an application for a complete hysterectomy and ovary removal cause i read somewhere that can help!!! She thinks I’m a nutter anyway, so at least she will have a laugh but no seriously I do want to stay around to see my daughters reach adulthood and spend time with my gorgeous Hubs so i am going to face it Head on, stop freaking and accept and do everything that helps!!!(Apart from giving up wine!!!)
I do hope you are all going to have a nice day and that you are good to yourself. Got my best friend coming round this morning, we will walk the dogs and put the world to rights. This afternoon I have another BC survivor coming round, nice woman but what a winger. told her last night about this HER2+ and herceptin and she said , oh no, thats not good!!!Its a baddie, talk about making somebody worry more!!! Anyway positivity is what we all need, life is too short. as my mum said a couple of weeks before she died aged 40, never waste a day, live everyday like its your last. I know its a cliche but my mum was right!!!
Oh BTW, got the dressing that has never been changed off, it was fine, I had a good look and it is semi straight and puckered, but towards the armpit looks deformed!!! I thanked the surgeon for the nice work,he laughed. What do I know about mastectomies, bugger all!!!Suppose i should start wearing a bra now, not bothering with the softie as it is double the size of the other boob!!! Honestly, i dont feel half a woman or anything like that, i feel really positive and I dont feel that self conscious!!! Maybe I will have a breakdown over it but I really dont think so cause that is not how I roll!!! Hats off to all you reconstruction ladies, you are so brave going through ops and procedures but I could never be as brave as you!!! I am going to just stick with the right torso as i know call the former booby area!!!
Have a great day Girls, keep your chin up!!! I have all 3 of mine proudly on display xxx