got results toda and I am Her2 negative so no chemo. Husband did that sighing and eye rolling thing of ‘I told you not to get so worried’. Bless him. He’s been a rock and is absolutely shattered himself. All the cancer is gone. There’s a micromet on one of the nodes but she’d cleared out more than she thought she had. I assume the little blighters look like bladderwrack seaweed. Anyway. Hopefully, that is it although they haven’t discussed me in The Monday Briefing so it could potentially change.
Been thinking about work. Was going to go back next Thurs and Friday but feel I owe it to my family to be proerly well for half term holiday so may book off next week and then do week of phased return after half term (half term not counted in my sick pay).
treated myself to a half of Guiness at lunch. Tis medicinal, doncha know.
Maxi. Everything is fine. She could felt the lump I was on about and said she is 100% certain it’s just all going back to normal. My scar is quite red but she said I’ve probably been over stretching so that’s where the pain has come from…
I’m not really thinking about it… I try and not get to worked up over my appointments now as it stresses me and I get upset and I’m trying to keep positive. I’ve a few sad films to watch so will try them and cry it out that way x
Flyingarcher… so so pleased that you are now cancer free and you don’t need any treatment. What a weight to be lifted… yes have some more time off to just get back to being you again… and I would of had a pint ?? xxxx
Yes, you phone GP and they organise it. I’ve got a telephone appt booked for Tuesday and will discuss it then but I’ve woken up really tired this morning and quite achey so the thought of work is not on. I work in a school and it’s really stressful and full on. When you are with students you are essentially being proactive all the time and it is utterly knackering. I went straight back after the extensive biopsies
I had done and really suffered - felt very spacey and peculiar. They’ve had their pound of flesh from me over the years and I am very rarely ill so I am trying not to feel guilty. I will access emails from home so will start doing that mid next week. We realy need this holiday and if I go back, I know I will catch something off the kids and I can’t risk that. Husband is running on empty at the mo and I need to think about him and my lads for once.
I tried to cut up some chicken last night - it was painful! Going to tackle a few bits of paperwork and house stuff today.
Once I start radiotherapy, then I will see how tired I get. I think I’d probablly be able to do the first week but I have a long drive to and from work so have to make sure I am safe to do that.
Just checking in with you all to say hi as I’ve been quiet for a few days. I’m still struggling with seroma in the SNB wound and a bit of an infection in the scar too. I feel as if I’ve got a golf ball under my armpit! I’ve tried to be a bit more active this week as I hit a real slump last week and definitely got the ‘glum’ feeling that you’ve talked about. I can’t even contemplate going back to work yet and I’m not sure how I’m ever going to manage that. I’m still waiting to hear if I need chemo or not. Had convinced myself they would say “straight onto rads” last week but they didn’t so here I am waiting waiting waiting. Still doing the “everything’s positive” routine for friends and family which is a bit exhausting. Trying to make the most of my time at home by reading novels but finding that I can’t keep a word in my head. Anyone else suffering brain freeze? Xx
Ti’ve got a pile of Things To Do as high as an elephant’s eye but rubbish tv calls!
A cold compress under the arm really helped with the golf ball feeling. I have a squidgy freezer pack that I wrap in a towel and lob under there for ten mins and then on my boob.
we have just had major surgery. We are ALLOWED to feel grotty. Normally we are the ones running around making life better for everyone else but we can’t so wallow in the safety of knowing we are justified in not having to do stuff because, for once, we have a whopping great, justifiable reason for sitting and watching rubbish tv.
it does take a while to get anesthetic out of your system. If you have an infection then that will make you feel reaally grotty. My boob is hurting more today and the skin reaction to the dressing has gone a bit bonkers.