This wait is unbareable

last month I found a lump in my left breast but just put it off for a while thinking it was due to hormones being as I was due my period. As it was still there a month later I went to the doctors thinking they’d just diagnose it as a cyst, she said she thought it was a cyst meant referred me to a breast clinic to be safe and so they could drain the fluid If I was a cyst as its causing pain. I went on Friday and it turns out its thickening of the tissue, the doctor said she isn’t too worand about it but she’s requested another scan and a biopsy. The wait is unbareaBle I already have anxiety attacks on a regular basis and this wait is making them worse. I typed it in goolgle even though I knew I shouldn’t but I couldn’t stop myself and it tells me about inflametry breast cancer. I’m a 23 year old single mum and finding it extremely hard to do anything because I’m constantly thinking about it. If the doctor said she isn’t too worried about it is that a good sign or do they say that to people to put there mind at rest? My family aren’t being supportive so I feel ASIf I’m being dramatic. I can feel my self wishing the days away just so I can hurry up and find out.

Hi Lilly90

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The waiting is the worst and as you are a much younger woman than me I can’t imagine where your head is at the moment.
I am sorry your family aren’t being supportive but there are lots of uplifting women on this site that help get you through the worst of it or will celebrate with you if there is the good news you deserve.
Everyone tells you to keep busy and take your mind off it, hard to do but if you gain the odd time where it is not your only thought it can feel like a holiday.
The best advice I had was to keep a positive outlook all the time. So it may be nothing. If it is bad news, then at least you are in the loop and doing something about it.
Hugs and keep us posted about your results!
Kahren

Thank you KarhenQ, yes the bit about feeling like a holiday when you manage to think about something else is spot on! But that is a rare occasion. Still no appointment through yet, if its not here by Friday im going to go get referred to go private, I understand i. Must be a very busy area at the hospital but you’d think as time makes a big diffrence they’d do things allot quicker! I think my family don’t realise how wopried I am. First day at work today since my ultrasound; was a struggle. I don’t know weather to mention to my boss about it or not so shed understand why I’ve been abit late recently or if its best to wait for results x thank you so much for your support, ill keep you posted x x

Hi Lilly90,
I have been following these forums since I found a lump a few weeks ago. A lot of the ladies have said that the waiting is the worse part as you feel so out of control.
I found the wait from first seeing my GP until I had my appointment was agonising. I couldn’t eat, sleep or concentrate on anything. Everytime my young daughter hugged me it took evry ounce of strength to stop bursting into tears (I haven’t told her anything yet). I had my appointment yeasterday and today I do feel a lot more upbeat. Like I am a little more back in control. I am now playing the waiting game again but soemhow it seems a bit easier now I know things are in motion.
Please rest assured, it will get easier for you as well. As soon as you get your appointment date a little weight will be lifted and then when you’ve had your scan and biopsy a little more will be lifted. I understand every day seems like a month, so try to stay busy.
I told my boss as soon as I found the lump and she was really kind and considerate. It made it easy to arrange time off work.
Good luck at you appointment, and do let us all know how you get on.
Lots of love and hugs,
Sue

Everybody is different in how they react and who they choose to tell, and how much. I decided to be upfront and tell everybody, and had some interesting reactions! The toughest thing I found was that my news kept getting worse and worse for a time, and for a while I got a bit fed up with people asking how I was!

I do encourage you to tell your boss if you can. Not everybody feels well supported at work I know, but you do have lots of hospital appointments and may well be “off your game” with the stress of it all, so it might help if people can cut you some slack.

On the other hand I hear of some who contrive to keep the whole thing secret, and wear a wig when their hair goes, and claim that nobody guessed a thing. I understand that to have a normal place to go to, where nothing is about cancer must be great, and if that works for these ladies, then I applaud them.

My husband started a new job right before my second surgery, and he is a much more “private” person than I am, and would rather not have said anything, but I encouraged him to let them know, so that they could be understanding when he was emotional at work or needed time off to help me. He reluctantly did so, and was amazed at how kind everyone was. Well he works in a jewelry store with a bunch of ladies, so I wasn’t that surprised!

Anyway, I hope all goes well for you! xx

Hello everyone sorry I couldnt get bathin the site foR Some reason. I had my 2Nd scan Friday and he said it was
fibroadenoma which was a relief. ive got to go back for regilar chrck ups. but thank you so much for your support It really helped me! next year I’m going to get a massive group of friends to do the race for life with me! I hoall everything goes okay with all of you xx

Hello everyone sorry I couldnt get bathin the site foR Some reason. I had my 2Nd scan Friday and he said it was
fibroadenoma which was a relief. ive got to go back for regilar chrck ups. but thank you so much for your support It really helped me! next year I’m going to get a massive group of friends to do the race for life with me! I hoall everything goes okay with all of you xx

Hi Everyone,
Had my WLE Op Then.got an infection which is responding to anti/b tabs. Soaked off my dressing today.
Got a letter moving next week’s follow up from Tuesday to Wednesday 5th to see surgeon and oncologist.
The wait for the path. report and the treatment plan seems interminable and every day drags with no one
around except here, to understand how long and difficult the wait is.

Good luck everyone, whatever stage you are at.

Vary XXX

After my first mammogram and a return today I have a one lump and a smaller one next to it. I am sick with worry and dont know how I can go on. I have to wait for my biospy results in a week but my life has just ceased as I know it. I am convinced it will be the worst news and just dont know how I can go on.