hi everyone, after fluid being drained off under my arm today I don’t feel solid there but I do feel a bit bruised. Adding that to the constant sunburn feeling on the underside and back of my upper arm which is in overdrive today and the fact I’m not sleeping I’m utterly fed up. I’m lying awake most nights for hours, usually from 2am ish with all the what if questions in my head and I just cannot see my life ever being normal again. Everything is based around this appointment and that and which pain meds and will I be well enough. Going from a busy working mum with a strong independent streak and a hectic life to what I am now is getting me down. Any words of wisdom re sleeping better or generally feeling better gratefully received, sorry to rant, just needed to offload xx
Aww Sarah I haven’t got any words of wisdom. I’m sorry but didn’t want to read and not reply. It’s bound to feel bruised as it’s all been stretched then deflated very quickly. As if what we’re going thru physically is not bad enough then there’s the waiting torture which is by far worse than anything I’ve known. It’s like a **bleep** hole we have to climb and just as we get near to the top they make it higher.
Have you seen your gp about sleeping? I take amitryptilene for trigeminal neuralgia and they do help with sleep too. It’s a very good painkiller for nerve type pain. Xx
Ash Sarah, sorry you are feeling #*at the moment, don’t have much you offer apart from you have been through so much physically and mentally and the lows and lowers (can’t say high as they feel few and far between ) ) just all get a bit to much. Would also suggest seeing your gp as the lack of sleep just compounds it all. I did say to my hubby that if this continues I will have to go as I don’t think I can carry on like this and I haven’t got past surgery yet, short term medication ain’t going to do any harm at all. Big hugs x
Hi Sarahkears, I feel exactly the same, I want my life back, the one that didnt have hospital appointments and like you say from one bloody hospital to results to next appointment cycle. The one where I had to moan about how much ironing I had to do or the supermarket shop, or who had just filled up the linen bin when Id spent all day washing and empting it!!! Now with my surgery nearly here I fear Im about to jump on the treatment cycle, first the surgery then the treatment, so I get where your coming from.
Sending hugs Love Bloss XXX
Hi all, thanks, arm not as zingy today. Back to the sports top rather than a bra which was pressing where they drained the fluid. I’m going back to work on a reduced timetable next week until chemo starts, so hoping having a more tired brain will help me sleep otherwise I will see the doctor as I’m not used to not sleeping. Hope you are all ok today, blossom you do keep me chuckling with your posts, will be thinking of you this weekend xx