to Fiona
to Fiona Fiona, I read your post and really feel for you. Hope everything turns out ok. You really have had it hard this last year. I hope you meet someone else who is more supportive take care love Eileen
me too Hi Fiona…just read your post on the other thread. I am so sorry that this is such a hard hard time for you.
Serious illness tests relationships…and yours is not the first to flounder on the rocks of cancer.
Go gentle on yoruself…take all the help you can, cry as much as feels right. I hope soon your hurt will start to heal.
very best wishes
Jane
Fiona - I’ve read your post on the other thread. i’m so sorry. I hope you’ll start to feel better soon.
Take care
Love Anthi
to Fiona Hi Fiona
just to say I know exactly how you feel. Same happened to me, all at the same time as mastectomy and facing chemo. Almost impossible to understand how and why. I can’t help but feel that this disease has taken too much from me.
I feel for you, honestly better days have to reach us don’t they?
Mandyxx
Hi Mandy Hi Mandy
Many thanks for your reply to my posting. Yes lets hope for better days ahead for us all and if I can help you in anyway then please ask. I was beginning to feel on the up and trying to rebuild my strength but to be honest now I do feel like I am spiralling downwards. I am so pleased to hear you say that you too feel that this disease has taken too much for us. I know people look at me now and see the short hair and see the make up and think she looks better so she must be fine but inside the healing is going on. I have spoken at length with a counsellor from MacMillan nursing and she has said that it normal to feel like that and that as I am beginning to feel better now, now is the time to be able to look back over it all, as whilst you are going thru it, you are surviving, coping for 3 children and just generally getting thru, so there is no time to think about it in great detail.
Havu you started your chemo yet? Stupid question number 156 but how are you getting on with it?
Thanks again
Fiona x
To Eileen Thank you for your reply. I hope so although its all so hard at the moment and my kids are finding it tough that you begin to wonder after a husband walking out 6 1/2 yrs ago, maybe I should just forget men completely, probably the way that I am feeling and there is always someone else out there much worse so lets hope better days are round the corner.
Many thanks
Fiona x
To Jane Thanks for taking the time and trouble to reply to me. Having a good cry day today lets hope for a better day tomorrow
Thanks again
Fiona x
To Anthi Many thanks for taking the time to reply, its amazing how this site works and just getting it all out does help.
Take care
Fiona x
Hi again Fiona probably posting in the wrong place now…
I think you are right, I am trying to cope with mastectomy, loss of partner and chemo all at once, and really just about managing to survive the days rather than to properly cope. I miss so much that has vanished. Yet more to be lost with the menopausal stuff that comes with tamoxifen - not what I expected at 38.
Had 2nd epi on Tuesday this week, and feeling a lot more sicky than 1st one, it’s hard to figure out how two more can be do-able. Xeloda is meant to be easier. I know lots have much worse effects from the chemo and I am trying not to be such a big moany pants. although I have just had yet another moan havent i?
I’m not sure how long it takes to heal inside, maybe we find a way to learn to live with all this (like so many things) rather than heal from it?
off to my sister’s to get the clippers out on what’s left of my hair…
do take care, try to bear in mind that the loss of your relationship is about him not you.
Mandyxx
Hi Fiona,
Just to let you know I relied to your posting on the thread that I started; I see some of the girls have started a new one so you’ll see my reply there. Hope you are feeling better today.
Take care and hope you have a good weekend, Carla x