Just a little update, Dad’s funeral is next Thursday 4th October at 2.00 p.m. My brother and I are arranging the actual service which is nice. Dad’s wants to be burried, not looking forward to that but its his wish. Mum’s doing OK. Our son has got a chest infection, what bad timing, hubby’s in awful pain with his tooth, had root canal etc but pain is now worse. I am doing OK, have lots of aches and pains, especially in tummy, lost a little weight (not a bad thing) and physically feel pretty grotty. Hope its just stress, son says just wait until after the funeral, give it a few days and then if no improvement get it checked. See the Onc at end of October so hopefully he will give me some reassurance. The fear of BC returning is always there, and after seeing my Dad go through the last few months I am permanently scared - this sounds so selfish worrying about my own health when everyone around me has problems too, just can’t help it. Has anyone else suffered physically too when losing someone they love? I look at other people and think how do they do it, they just seem to keep going and never have anything wrong with them. Then again, it might just be me, complaining!!
Anyway, hope to hear from you, have missed you all recently.
Dawn, how are you getting on, when do you start your next round of chemo? Keep smiling, there are lots of people who love you and will support you. Hope to speak to you soon.
Relating to physical illness when around those who are ill.
My dad died three years ago of testicular cancer. It was horrific to see the pain he was in during his last few weeks. He went downhill rapidly the week we decided to go away for a few days. He died before I could get to the hospice and he died alone (Although in ‘the big sleep’ as I called it). I have never got over not being there for him. 18 months after he died I was diagnosed with BC, I don’t know whether it was just coincidence or the grief that I still hold that sparked off the old cancer cells.
I try not to think about the poor treatment my dad received at the hands of his GPs and oncologists. He was quite antagonistic and I am sure they just wanted to get him out of the door. At the time I was not so knowledgeable about cancer so I was not able to support him as much as I would have liked. I was also under pressure at work so I do wonder if the pressure and stress all contributed to my cancer. Or maybe it was the wine drinking!.
Anyway Kelly my thoughts are with you for next Thursday, my condolences to you and all your family.
Kindest regards
Carol
Good to hear from you - have been wondering how you are.
Sorry to hear your son and hubby arent great at the minute; get your hubby to go back to the dentist. I had a root canal filling in one tooth, and once the anaesthetic wore off I was in even more pain. I went back to the Dentist only to find the nerve in the tooth next to it was infected too, hence yet another root canal filling !
You’re not selfish worrying about your own health - I’m sure we all do. I think maybe your son’s right though, and your aches and pains etc could be down to stress. You’ve been through so much recently, it’s not surprising you feel so grotty.
Anyway my love, will be thinking of you next Thursday, I know it’ll be hard, but you’ll get through it.
Glad you posted, keep meaning to see how you are doing, as been a while, but I have not been on as much as usual either.
I hope next Thursday goes as well as it can (you know what I mean), and that your son and hubby are both feeling heaps better. I am sure that it is just stress with you, as you have been through the mill recently and still are, emotionally and physically. Your tummy is probably reacting to your stress and tension, but agree that after you have laid your Dad to rest, you should go see Onc or Dr to get checked out, better to be safe. Please try to take care of yourself and rest when you need to as well.
I am doing OK thanks. Had a right downer last weekend after 3rd FEC, caught up with me I think, as had to be up and get Sophie ready for preschool by 9am every morning, and usually the 2 days after chemo I have a lie in, but not last week. Decided that 3 days after chemo, it seems to go in a pattern that get down and emotional. But Hey, am OK now, been back to normal this week, although not posted as much I have to admit. My next Chemo is on 10th Oct, starting the dreaded taxotere, but if it zaps the b******s then I can take it. Willing to have anything and everything I can to help me. Got ultrasound next Thursday at 10.30 to see if lumps in boobs have shrunk and am s******g myself in case no change or worse.
Anyway, enough dribbling from me. This was to see how you are doing and reply to your post. And remember, you are NOT selfish worrying about yourself, you have to, and you need to. You have been through so much in the last few weeks, time for Kelly.
I just wanted to wish you well for your dads funeral next thurs. I really hope it goes as well as can be expected. My thoughts are with you and your family at this very sad time,
Just wanted to wish you all the best for the funeral this week.
Just to say that after my Dad’s funeral 2 weeks ago, I felt quite ill and low myself, ending up in A&E with an infection on the very night of the funeral. Also have felt coldey and coughey, but have avoided the doctor so far, have an appointment with my Onc on Tuesday so will mention it then.
I’m hoping your aches and pains are brought on by the stress as I’m sure was the case with me. Make sure you try to eat properly as I’m sure that was another factor with me.
Do take care and I’ll be thinking about you on Thursday at 2pm.