To W. to Nemo and to Rainbow…
To W. to Nemo and to Rainbow… I posted you all a long message of appreciative thanks for all your loving support and forgot to click on “post” so it 's disappeared into cyberspace and it is so late at night now that I haven’t the energy to write it all out again. But I want you all to know that I don’t know how I would’ve got through the past horrendous few days without those messages you took the trouble to send me.
I’ll spare you the details but my Dad used to say that where there’s a will there’s always a family quarrel and although Mom never left a will that didn’t stop the quarrelling. Some of us would’ve liked time to grieve before having to sort through all Mom’s tired little possessions but others wanted to get rid asap so that they could move on with their own lives. Their wishes prevailed leaving me shell-shocked. It’s very sad when you have to come to a chatforum to feel you are being listened to. But thankfully you were all here for me just when you were most needed.
I wish I could take you all out and buy you all a drink.
Love and cyberhugs from P. xx
Hi Philomena,
I have been thinking about you a lot the passed few days, had the site open most of yesterday wondering if you were going to post.
I am giving you back all those hugs you gave me, from that huge volcano, now erupting cyberhugs all around you ,
found this for you :
Friendships come and go,
like waves upon the sand,
like day and night, like birds inflight,
like snowflakes when they land,
But we all here ,are something else,
our friendship’s here to stay,
like weeds and rocks and old dirty socks,
we never go away
lots of love
Rach x
HI Thanks for taking the time to post.
I know what you mean about the where there is a will there is a quarrel. It is far to painful for me to talk about, but that is what happened to me after my dad died. A year on, it still is as painful as the bereavement itself. A quarrel was the last thing my dad would have wanted, he was always for the quiet life. Emotions are high, and given time I’m sure things will settle.
I have got 2 appts lined up, the 15th Jan and 16th Jan with Clinical Psychologist, so may be able to thrash a few things out there.
The very best of everything to you, and you know where you are if you want us.
xxx
Thanks P… and sorry to hear what’s erupted (not Nemo’s volcano you understand, I mean what’s going on in your family!)
How are you today?
Like Nemo, I’ve been thinking about you lots over the past few days and would just like to say thanks for the night you sat up and drank champagne with me to help ME celebrate… I will now be returning your valued friendship (even if just in cyberspace) and accept a nice G&T in order to sit beside the fireside with you, glasses in hand and just listen to whatever thoughts and feelings you wish to outpour… even if I can’t get on to reply over the next few days, you’re in the hands of good friends here and if you need a lifeline we’re all here to listen.
What else are friends for?
Take care,
Love and best wishes,
Roberta x
(Can I join the “feeling 20” club?!!)
By the Way… Lovely poem Nemo!
xxx
Pure Gold! OK enough all of you or you’ll have me crying into my brandy! And yes the feeling 20 club is open to all - those with tiny bodies have still got huge hearts.
My son and girlfriend have just left after taking me out for lunch and making me giggle so hard I nearly xxxxxxxxxxxxx!!! It was just what I needed.
Husband is on his way home from visiting his brother in hospital so can’t stay to write much. But had to touch base to tell you all over again how much you have meant to me.
Loved the poem and have copied it out.
I think of you all all the time anyway but I’ll keep sending extra special thoughts for those special dates.
Wishing you all a wonderful Christmastime - didn’t want to do so too soon so I hope I haven’t left it too late now… I’ll probably keep checking in as I’ve now become a junkie.
Love laughter cyberhugs and loads of everything you most wish for yourselves, from P. xx
Happy New Year! Happy New Year to withthehelpoffriends, findingnemo, rainbowwalker, cathy, julie and anyone else who is reading this …
with love, laughter and loads of cyberhugs and wishing you all health and happiness in 2007 (the wealth I,m keeping for myself!)
giggles from P. xx
And special positive thoughts for the january appointments
Thanks! Just logged on quickly before going to work , and as usual it was great to see your message.
A better New Year for us all I hope. Hope Christmas was tolerable for you, and a welcome distraction.
Speak soon.
x
Happy New Year Wish ! Hi ,
I would like to send a you all a Happy ‘Nemo’ New Year Wish!
With a huge rainbow attached to it ( cant guarentee a pot of gold though 
love & hugs
Rachel
ps.been thinking of you P…
Thanks again, all of you I really appreciate logging on and finding your messages of support - thanks all of you! It’s Mom’s funeral tomorrow so that’ll be another hurdle out of the way. Cathy going for her results tomorrow puts things into perspective. Keep everything crossed for her!
Love, Laughter and Cyberhugs and if the person who had an appointment on Jan 3rd is reading this, please post and tell us how you got on. Everything has been a bit frenetic here but I’ve been sending positive thoughts even if I can’t remember names! Love from P. xx
HI P! Just to say I will be thinking of you tomorrow. A difficult day I know. A little glass of sherry helped to settle my nerves. I have to say the day did go by in a blur.
The days that follow too are surreal, but remember one step at a time.
Lots of love.
J x
J??? Hi J.
I’ve thought of you as W. for so long that meeting J. is like meeting a whole new person! Pleased to meet you and how are you doing?
I really appreciated your postings. You have so much to contend with that it means a lot to me when you think of me. Thanks.
The funeral went OK and it was good meeting up with the extended family again. If you read Chit Chat and fun, you’ll know about the one comic moment in the day which is the bit I’ll hang on to! I always did have a “perverse” sense of humour and that particular scene was like something off a TV comedy routine.
I daren’t start on the sherry - I already have a reputation for champagne!
Do have one for me tho!
My next hurdle is 24th when I go for my second opinion. With all that’s been happening, I haven’t had much chance to focus on that - probably just as well! I’m bracing myself for the verdict which I’m feeling certain will be a second op.
How are you feeling about going to the clinical psyc.? I haven’t lost sight of you even tho there’s been so much going on in my life. I am so grateful for this site and the wonderful people on it that I make sure I send everyone who posts on the entire forum positive thoughts for energy to help them get through the day and then I do the same again at night.
In a magazine I saw this and it made me smile - continuous wobbling is essential if you want to keep your life in balance. My body wobbles all the time so I guess I must be always in balance? What do you reckon?
How is the rest of your treatment going? Well, I hope? Do let me know - everyone has been focussing on me so it must be your turn again now.
Looking forward to being brought up to date and thanks again for all your support. It’s been amazing to me to find so many people so very kind to someone they scarcely know.
I’m starting to send my cyberhugs with Cheshire Cat grins attached to keep you smiling so loads of love, laughter and Cheshire Cat cyberhugs with lots of giggles from P. xx
Hi You can think of me as W or J! When I had to think of a user name , the first thing that came to mind, was how if it hadn’t been for my friends, who perhaps were slightly removed from the family, who kept me going, I think I would have given up a long time ago. They still continue to be a great source of strength, and I know the true meaning of freindships, and acquaintances.
I’m glad the funeral was ok,and read chit chat and fun! I always like a laugh in the most unusual of circumstances!
With regards to the clinical psy., On a good day, I think wahat is the point of going to open up healing wounds, and maybe I will feel worse rather than better. However, on a bad day, I feel desperate for help, and feel I have been waiting for this appt for 3 months, and so very nearly went back on the anti-depressants. Glad I didn’t though. I feel I will give it a good go, it will be good to have someone I can talk to about my hopes and fears, without them knowing anything about me. It just happens to be the day after my annual breast check, the first one since diagnosis, 16 months! Really hoping that all goes well.
I’m not sure I could handle another knock, so fingers crossed.
As for the wobbly bits, I have a few more of those than I would like! Could do with losing half a stone before Our holiday at Easter!
Good luck for the 24th. I agree that is great to speak to you on here, and I often wish we could meet up.
Take care.
xx
Hi Withthehelpoffriends! Great to hear from you again! I’ll be keeping everything crossed for those two dates for you. Not so long to wait now.
How have you been? I was trawling through the forum one night when I couldn’t sleep and reading some of the posts from people who’ve been going through what you’ve been going through and to me you are all amazing people finding ways to cope. It must really shake your life up and then afterwards - it reminds me of a kaleidescope - the bits settle down again but into a different pattern. How difficult must that be! Suddenly you find you are not the same as you were before but you ache for the loss of the old safe life? It’s like the process of going through grief?
I do hope you get someone who you are comfortable talking with. My friend has her first NHS appointment next week and she’s a mixture of expectation, apprehension and resigned apathy. She doesn’t really expect too much but even so she wishes so much that this will help her. Life seems to have lost its sparkle and she hasn’t the energy to try and find it…
Going for your check-up must be scary too? I wish you the very best of luck. I’ll be thinking of you and wondering how you got on. Is someone going with you for support?
I noticed that you have had a job interview but that you were glad you didn’t get to change jobs at the moment - still much too soon? Are you any closer to deciding what to do next or are you still in Limbo? I really care you know. I think it’s easier to become friends over a chat line because each of us focusses on the other in turn with absolutely unconditional love whereas in real life I’d probably interrupt you all the time and rapidly become a source of irritation! Still, if BCC keep their word, we may be able to exchange email addresses soon and then take it from there…
Until then, I’m here when you need me,
Love, cyberhugs and never forget the laughter from P. xx
PS. We took our small grandson to see Happy Feet and the best moment for me was when Happy Feet was chased by a huge seal and ended up face-to-face with some smaller penguins who stood up to the seal and jeered at it , making fun of it. It was hilarious and it reminded me that life can be better if you face the problems and turn the nasty encounters into a laugh!