Hi ladies
Thank you for your words of support for me and each other which really helps us get through tough times!
We all find ways of coping through life on the whole, never mind what we are going through now and the words of encouragement for each other on here really do help us.
Whether we cope by still working, raising for charity, donating time, exercising, eating habits, exercise or by simply offering words of comfort, we are all not just trying to get through this difficult time day by day but when I read the threads I cant help but realise what a bloody good bunch of ladies are on here sharing anything which may help someone else!
My diagnosis has really change my outlook on life! I worked hard for the past years non stop becaise I had to bring up my daughter, but now I have realised she is 20 and I need to concentrate on myself and my health and continue to fundraise in between, of course! This will never stop! It’s my way of motivating myself and using what I have to be able to help others have a better qualitly of life, but I will take it much more easier, do the organising and let others do the running about?
There is going ro me more me time in store and doing what I want to do for a change!
I used to worry about what people thought of me or how they judged me! Not anymore! Couldnt give a toss! I will do what I feel?
I dress up to look good and feel good for myself now! If anyone doesnt like what I wear, tough! But my self esteem and confidence isnt as high now which is what treatment has done to me, but what I do know is that it will come back!!!??
My tolerance with people has changed! I used to be very tolerant and give people and situations plenty of chances! Not anymore!
I had a ‘friend’ who we knew was a drama queen and couldnt control her drink but I would guide her and tell her if she was a laughing stock! She tried to turn my situation into her drama, tears, getting pissed, shouting and making a fool of herself but when I had it out with her she went very quiet and stayed away. I told her she didnt need to but just accept that she was wrong but no, she is so stubborn by the time she had realised how wrong she was and I’d given her 3 chances to see me it was too late! Im actually relieved her negativity isnt around anymore and hope she can sort her head out! But the last straw was when I was told by her sister that she made the family think for montbs thst she had ‘C’ for attention! How sad is this!!!
Then I sacked my date who decided to tell me he had depression when he found out about my diagnosis! Yet he was out til all hours getting sloshed and fit enough to do go to work, business meetings etc! I look back on things and realised he use to blame me for his abnormal behaviour after a drink!
And the last straw was when a gossiper(we all know for this) went to my hairdresser a couple of times to get information about me and actually said ’ My friend told me CK was ill!’ Has she been? Has she had her hair done? What did she have done? Reslly? Long? Short? Etc etc etc! My hairdresser was uncomfortable and told me…so I sent her a text to tell her to button it and if she wanted to know something why not ask me herself???She couldnt help herself, even if we didnt invite gossip she would just talk and put everyone down. Before this, I gave her excuses that she was unhappy but not anymore! Rid!!!
I dont know about you ladies but when I hear someone complaining about something trivial it really winds me up! Really, you are complaining about the floor being dirty and having to clean it again!!! Or you are really dying of a cold??? ITS A COLD!!! I know everyones problems are their own but…
Anyway I’ve told the mates(the ones left?) apart from my change with tolerance and patience I am still the determined, kind, generous lady who wants to be here for others too but beware…DO NOT PISS ME OFF( excuse my language???
Hope I’m not the only one feeling like this!!! I am noce really???
have my first chemo on Tuesday, 31.10 
because you dedicated the whole paragraph to me, spent a good few minutes to write this all even though you don’t know me