Tonight I feel like crap

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Tonight I feel so down, I’ve got tears as I type this. I feel like its not real. My husbands stressed as he’s been working all day to get some engine out of a van for a man who’s coming tomorrow morning. I asked him what he wanted for tea at 8.20pm and he moaned at me, but his friend is helping so I just asked. He was moaning he was cold and his back hurt, that he’d trapped his finger. I wish i had only trapped my finger arsing about with a stupid car. So I’m sat at home on my own.  Feeling abit better now for moaning to ll you lovely people. You know I love getting emails that says someone has replied. xx

 

 

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Hi Tortoisegirl

I didn’t just want to read your post and not reply. Im sorry you’re feeling so wretched. The trouble with this disease is that its a real rollercoaster of emotions. You feel as though you’re doing ok, then WHAM-it hits you with avengance and the slightest thing can set you in a downward spiral. Unfortunately, its often our OH that we end up at odds with though I do agree that they can be a tad insensitive at times. Sending you a big cyber hug to hopefully help while you are feeling so down. Take care Lynne x

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Thank you x

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It’s crap I keep saying I have cancer and waiting to cry or shout but then nothing happens. Although I am glad to say that I’m glad it’s me .

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It is a good job that it is women and not men who get breast cancer as we all know how pathetic they are even about the smallest injury or pain!You have got all our sympathy i m sure!

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I feel the same today. Was so positive last 2 days and woke up this morning angry and morbid. Can’t shift it either. The MRI on Tues seems too far away and I’m not seeing the consultant until Thurs. So all I know is I have breast cancer. Don’t know what stage what grade and what treatment I will get. I’m scared to take my bra off - isn’t that ridiculous? I’m scared of my own boobs. I will maybe laugh at this some day but today it’s not funny at all. 

 

:frowning:

 

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I don’t know anything yet just that I have it.

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That’s men for you!

They really don’t understand. They can appear very sympathetic but the bottom line is…they don’t!

 

It’s hard when you’re first dx, your head is all over the place. Just don’t google…you’ll scare yourself silly.

 

You’ll get better, really.

 

xx

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Just to reply to all you lovely ladies.

 

I’ve been where you all are and it’s not a nice place.

 

I was dx nearly 6 years ago but remember those days so well. It’s a scary place. You’re going through the dx process etc and your head is all over the place. You don’t know what treatment you’ll need and you’re freaking out.

 

It’s natural, but not necessary. Chemo is scary but is ok. I’m still here now over 5 years out, enjoying life again.