Hi @mssteel thank you for asking
just coming to the end of my first cycle of carbo/pac/pembro > carbo/carbo
Still got all my hair but a cupboard full of eyebrow transfers and lashes ready and about 5000 headscarves. If anyone is near Cov and wants to borrow them come on down, haha. I am not allowed to coldcap for the first part so prepping for it.
I’ve felt a bit grimy, not waves of nausea but mostly unpleasant for the first 5 days, then I picked up on day 6 and 7 and felt normal. Second infusion was fine, taste changed on day 10 and 11 and then went back to normal. Day 11, I did too way too much and felt like hammered sh1t in the afternoon but picked up again next day. Second crash was on the afternoon of Day 13 after a mentally draining day at work. Had a few episodes of hand tingling but been wearing cold gloves and socks during my pac infusion. Fingers crossed the gloves help.
Im a bit depressed atm though. I elected to come off my HRT (still waiting for the definitive answer from my oncologist but i got scared so didn’t replace my patch last week) and I think its a combo of that/roid rage/weird sleep/chemo etc and my husband is a social creature and has been out with friends most weekends when I’vebeen at home with a mouth that tastes like a bin and trying to avoid infections (bloods dropped this week too). Some days my fog is so much i cant string a sentence together. Ive had friends come and visit but after an hour my heads gone and then I need to go and sit quiet to recover afterwards.
I’ve been walking every day, i managed an at home Body Pump session but I miss exercise SO much. Was hoping to be cleared to go swimming but they said no. I have got to pull my pants up and get out of this funk as its not helpful and I cant let this win. I will not let cancer send me into a dark place. Its already robbed enough, little b*stard.
In chemo im Ms Positive, chattering to everyone and being everyone’s BFF and in full masking mode (i have ADHD possibly AuDHD) but inside im dying (literally and emotionally haha) and i came home last night and just felt drained and sad even though it was only a Pac!
So sorry, ive been awake since 5.30 and just feeling a bit pants atm. This regime is aiming to cure even though its sandblasting everything to achieve that. I’ve been through shit before, including divorce, can do it again.
Sorry! I’ve reread this and it is so negative.
TLDR On the whole side effects are manageable, though i get super tired and my mouth tastes like a bin and I’m emotionally drained. Could be a LOT worse though
Hugs and solidarity to you all. Keep kicking the sh!t out of your tumours, ladies xxx 