If this post doesnt make much sense i apologize as i am really struggling
I was referred to the breast clinic 1st dec by my GP who found a “smooth, horizontal, mobile swelling 1x2cm after a consultation as i had a tender spot on the outer lower part of my left breast ( which now seems to have gone!) I asked if she thought this was suspicious and she said it didnt feel suspicious but will refer me to the breast clinic as a matter of caution
I had my app at the breast clinic on the 15th in which i saw a doctor who performed an examination. He seemed pretty relaxed, I cant remember all of the conversation but i remember asking if he thought this was something to worry about and he said unlikely
He performed a breast examination and said he could feel “what they referred me for” and he will get me in for a ultrasound and mammogram. He gave me some advice of “when scares like this happen it can make people reevaluate things” i asked again if he thought it was anything as he is referring me for a mammogram and ultrasound and he said he was “66% but wants to be 99% just to check some discrepancies”
I could not make any sense of it, i feel i am no further forward no i am terrified of having the ultrasound and mammogram tomorrow
I have been unable to eat or sleep, i last ate sunday night as i cannot stomach the thought of food, I can barely function just very very basic, i cannot stop thinking about it. I cannot work out if my anxiety is causing more pain in my breasts or if it is something else.
I contacted my GP regarding how i was feeling and they said kindly to just get on with it
Hi @moonchild. We are so sorry to hear this. It must be such a worrying time for you, it’s completely normal to be feeling this way.
I would really recommend reaching out to our nurses if you are feeling overwhelmed, or if you have any questions. Sometimes it can just be helpful to talk things through beforehand. You can reach them on our free helpline 0808 800 6000, and you can call them as many times as you want or need.
I truly hope you are able to get some answers soon on this thread about way’s to handle your anxiety and what to expect tomorrow, and that you are able to find comfort and support in the meantime.
Hello @moonchild . I’m sorry you are feeling so anxious right now . Waiting for results is so awful ,we all know how it feels . I ended up with Valium prescribed by GP which gave me a little bit of respite from the hideous anxiety .The good news is that this is the worst time , when you really don’t know what is going on so your mind fills the void with horrible ideas. The reality is even if you are diagnosed with breast cancer there’s a very good chance it will be successfully treated and you will brush yourself off and get on with your life . Keep posting here you will get lots of support from people who understand .
@moonchild we are all here with love and support, at the moment it’s one day at a time, look after and be kind by to yourself, trying to eating and drinking plenty of water.
Most hospitals have a breast cancer nurse, who should be available for you to chat with tomorrow. Will be thinking of you please let us know how your appointment went.
Hopefully it won’t be as bad as you imagine, fingers crossed for a good outcome.
Look you sound as if you have a great medic really going the extra mile for you. Chances are he is right and you will emerge smiling with an ALL Clear diagnosis. There is absolutely no need to worry about a mammogram and ultrasound. These are quick and painless investigation techniques which allow doctors to get a clear picture of exactly what may/may not be happening in your body.
However, your GP is also right in that you need to take hold of yourself. I am sure he did not mean to be harsh because clearly he is doing everything he can for you and he will understand that anxiety is a very natural feeling when going through this experience. But not eating, not sleeping is no help at all. Put one foot infront of the other and go about your daily business and before you know it you will be out the other side and, hopefully, clear for the future. In the unlikely event that they find anything of concern, you will need your strength and resilience. Falling apart helps no-one, certainly not you.
