Update on "I'm so frightened and I can't calm down"

Well it’s breast cancer and although I hate the diagnosis I feel so much better now that I know. Waiting for confirmation after they tell you they think you have it is the most excruciating experience of my life. Now at least I’ve got some answers. Anyway it’s a 1.6 centimeter ICD that is ER/PR positive. Histologic grade was 3 which I know sucks but mitosis score was 2. I’m hoping that bodes better for spread. It’s 7 cm from the nipple buried deep in my dense breast tissue. Still can’t feel the damn thing. Good thing they do mammograms here starting at 40 because if I had to wait till I was 50 I would have been up shit’s creek (48 is my age). Can any of you tell me anything else I should look for in the report or maybe even whether this is a positive report? I know nothing about lymph nodes yet but they were not reactive in my ultrasound and I hope it stays that way. Am very much hoping to avoid chemo and radiation. As of right now I am leaning towards a DIEP flap with both breasts removed. Now that I know they like to make yucky things I have no real use for them. My frame of my mind will be better that way. If I choose a DIEP will I have to continue mammograms? Anyway any info will be appreciated and thank you so much for your kind words last week when I didn’t know anything but knew the radiologist suspected cancer. That was just an awful time. It’s not like this is great or anything either but it’s breast cancer. It’s not like it’s all that unusual and it may be weird to say you take comfort in that but I do.

Hi - just a quick note to say sorry to hear of your diagnosis and I hope you’re holding up OK. I’m in a very similar situation too - I was diagnosed on Friday, but feel much better for knowing rather than the agonising wait for it to be confirmed!  I have a 1.4cm tumour  ER/PR+, HER2-.  Just curious - were you offered lumpectomy + radiotherapy too and leaning down the mastectomy route instead?  I’m in a similar situation, I think I’d prefer a mastectomy as my mum passed from BC 3.5 years ago (different tumour type to mine) but I think I’d rather just have it all taken off, although I have been told I’d lose my nipple too given the location of the tumour.  I got the impression that there wouldn’t be regular mammograms if I went down this route, but not sure if I misunderstood. I totally get that I won’t have a boob there to scan, but would the other side not get scanned too? Have you got a date scheduled for your op? xx

Hi, my first post on here.  I was diagnosed on Thursday with grade 3 cancer in left breast that they think is approx 16mm.  Have immediately stopped HRT and had coil removed today as apparently mine is high on oestrogen receptors (8/8.). Consultant is suggesting lumpectomy on 27th June followed by radiotherapy and possibly chemo depending on any lymph node involvement.  Feeling very scared and unsure about lumpectomy v mastectomy.