Hi Folks,
Just found my way here. Basically found lump 2 weeks ago -saw consultant yesterday and had ultrasound and mammogram -highly likely it is cancer - 38mm lump in left breast with no apparent lymph involvement. Had cone biopsy and will get results next week.
Feel I am in a dream - and at the same time scared what I will feel like when it kicks in. People at work today were very supportive - but its not them dealing with it is it? I always have been anxious and had bouts of depression - scared -just scared.
I dont want to die -at least not yet - Im only 52 and have loads of plans for things I want to do. I have the most beautiful 21 yr old daughter and i want to be in her life for a good while yet. My mum died when I was 24 - and i dont think I have ever got over it - and now Im just so scared Im going to leave her at about the same age.
Im sorry im just waffling - I just need to say things that are on my mind. Ive got a host of other medical problems already, and i keep thinking this will make it more likely that i wont survive.
Please someone just tell me you understand how i am feeling…
Sorry you have had to join us. At the start it is very worrying and you do think about all the negatives and wonder what the future holds but once you get more information you will be more able to rationalise it more.
Breast cancer is very treatable and around 90% of people diagnosed today will survive at least 10 years… The positives are that you ave now found it, it appears your nodes are negative and you going to get it treated.
If your prone o depression you may find it helpful to discuss your thoughts and feelings with your gp… Many people diagnosed do need a course of antidepressants for the duration of treatment… Some ADs can actually help with the symptoms of some treatments.
The helpline no a the top of the page is a great source of help too.
Dear kajyann
Sorry to hear your story. Your feelings are totally natural and understanding and the waiting for results is honestly the hardest part as you can’t help but think the worst and review everything else that is happening. I have also had some issues with depression as my mother has had some serious health issues this year and my OH had a scare earlier this year though is now fine. My diagnosis was therefore the icing on the cake for me, especially as my daughter is 16 next week and doing her GCSEs which reminds me of the problems I faced at her age when my mother was also ill and I had to look after my younger brother !!
I was diagnosed at the end of Nov with DCIS and will be having a mastectomy and reconstruction in January after a sentinel node biopsy next week. Once I knew what was happening, the headaches and panic started to subside and I am finding it much easier to cope knowing that there is a plan and that I will beat this.
The knowledge and technology now means that they can do so much more for you, whatever the diagnosis may be.
Please take care and keep us posted on your progress. You will get a lot of support from the lovely ladies on this forum.
Best wishes and big hugs
L x
WOW - didnt expect such quick replies. Thank you so much for your kindness and your positive words. I will certainly let you know how it goes next week. At the moment I dont know whether to cry or scream ‘its not fair!’ I have had Crohns disease for 21 years and have had lots of surgery for that, including a permanent stoma. so i feel as though Ive had my share of upset health wise.
Anyway, thanks again for your answers - I really really appreciate it
love light peace
kajyann
As well as the support you are receiving from the other forum members, as Lulu has mentioned you may find it helpful to talk things through with a trained member of staff on the BCC helpline. Here you can share your worries and concerns with someone who will offer you a listening ear as well as emotional support and practical information. The free phone number is 0808 800 600 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 and Saturday 9.00 to 2.00.
I was diagnosed oct 2010 with a grade 3 tumour and have finished radio and chemo and am part way thru my herceptin. I have just had my check up mammogram and they have found white spots in my other breast. I am so worried as i have to wait a week for the results. Has anybody else been in this situation I know it might be nothing but how could it be anything if i have just had all this treatment. I feel so sick now ive just gone back to work and started to feel normal again i thought i was going to end this year on a high.
Dixons after a diagnosis of BC they are much more cautious and will biopsy you more just to confirm things are not cancer as much as to confirm that they are.
White spots can be a sign of calcification… Some calcification are just changes within the milk duct but some can be precancerous changes… Dcis. Sometimes they cannot tell which type it is until they have done the biopsy… Fingers crossed it turns out to be he benign type xxx
Received my results yesterday which was as expected after my initial appointment with the Doctor. He confirmed that my bc is ductal at 14mm and type 3. This is a faster growing cancer linked to hormones. Everything was very upbeat (if you can say that when you have just been told you’ve got bc)but I was determined not to get emotional when he told me and having my husband there to support me gave me the extra strength etc. Now booked in for my op on 9th Jan for lumpectomy and lymph check, of course they may do more depending on what they find but we will have to cross that bridge if necessary. You probably think that I’m sounding strong but inside my stomach will not settle down and my head is also in a bit of a mess. I’m 61 and have two beautiful daughters and strong family around me. Also good friends that have been through this 10,15 and 20 year survivours. You take strength from this also and hold yourself up high and kick the demons that are trying to pull you down. We and all the other lovely people on this site are trying to do the same. Hang in there and look forward to better things. because they are going to come!
Beryl you must be in such a horrible place at the moment, it’s always good to get the results because at least then you know exactly what you are dealing with but boy the effect it has on the family especially at this time of year is just awful. We are all trying to pretend that christmas is going to be good, which it will be, but there will always be the white elephant in the corner of the room mine is sat at the side of the christmas tree at the moment :(((
Please remember you don’t have to be strong on here, I am very strong for the family friends etc but on here I can be myself and really let it all out, it does you good.
You are right good things will come to us and there are many survivers out there, but some days that doesn’t help does it? and the good times feel a feel a very long way off. I can’t wait for the day I meet people and we talk about normal things and they don’t ask me about my gremlin! I suppose it is their way of showing they care but I don’t want to talk about it, oh well early days I suppose
Off to RADS appointment in a mo happy days
x
