Hello.
It’s lovely to see such a friendly community here. I thought I was doing well with the waiting but as each hour passes I find myself getting more and more…well worried isn’t the word but not sure how to say it…I think I’ve mentally prepared myself that cancer is a possibility but to “prepare for the worst and hope for the best”.
Basically on 21st July I noticed a lump in my breast, I thought it may have been a blocked sweat gland or something due to the hot weather and where it was (at the bottom of my cleavage along my bra line). I didn’t really bother much until it hadn’t gone and I could ‘release’ the build up - thinking it was a blocked follicle or such… However I was now due to go on holiday so didn’t mention anything until a few days in when it felt aggravated by a particular bra I’d won that was sitting on it more. It’s been fine since this day, never hurting but I think My underside must have sat directly on it and made it tender. So I mention to my partner who said to get it checked…he must have been worried cause he meant whilst we were away! Anyway first day back I managed to get a Drs appointment dispute having to arrange it as late in the day as possible due to travelling for a funeral…oddly enough for a family friend who had died from breast cancer (secondary).
When I see the GP it is nearly 6pm. She examine my breast and i feel relieved she can feel a lump…I’d kind of imagined that if get there and she’d think is made it up. She asked about my family history (none) and tried to feel around it saying something about sometimes being able to feel the 'head if it was a cyst. Said she wasn’t sure and didn’t have x-ray vision so referred me for 2 week clinic.
I actually got a call at 12 the next day to make an appointment…I was impressed with speed considering they must have been closed when referral got sent and probably not started until 9 so had got to me within 3 hours. This was Tuesday and my appointment is for this Tuesday the 14th. Only a week to wait…I can cope with that I thought! Now I have 3 more nights to wait and it’s like torture! My appointment is also 4pm so have to wait all of Tuesday too!
The more I wait the more I think that it’s worse than I thought…until after the holiday and after the GP I hadn’t really notices that I also dimple where the lump is. I know these together leant add up nicely…but I also know it doesn’t automatically mean BC. However as I said I’m trying to “prepare for the worse” and have read a lot of lovely threads and very useful information on this website. Now I just need to know!
I thought I’d add an image of my dimple. Hopefully, after Tuesday, I can return with good news and the 2 together may comfort others currently in my position, showing it doesn’t have to mean BC. (See there’s my optimism!).
I know no one here is a Dr… but how does it look ? I can’t believe I never noticed the dimple…
