Waiting for op ! Not feeling very with it !

I was diagnosed three weeks ago, the day before we went to Tenerife for 11 days. It was a real shock, as had been recalled after my last mammogram, but it was fine & they just put a clip in. Glad we went away, as was able to take my mind off it & the fact that the doctor said that I would have my pre op on the17th & my op this week sometime, so that is what I was building up to. Consequently when I went for my appt last Friday, when the doctor said it was just a pre assessment & didn’t say anything new, I was a bit upset, she said someone would call today & I had a phone call this morning to say that my op would be 10 April, I am afraid I just broke down, as I had built myself up for this week, but know I will have to accept, but it seems all waiting! I feel as if it is all happening to someone else & I am looking on & that I will wake up soon, does anyone else feel like this?

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Hi everything your feeling is very normal , I felt like that to that I was in a bad dream and would wake and I’d be ok but it wasn’t . I have to say that things did happen very quickly for me from being sent to breast clinic having mammogram biopsy and bank following week for results and then give date for op the next week I felt I didn’t have time to draw breath but looking back now it was better than all the waiting, I sympathise with you and hope all goes well , I’ve finished all my treatment now and back at work , this forum is really good and I wish I had found it last year , we are all here to help you in anyway we can so ask anything that you need to there’s always someone with the answer love and hugs xx

Fuertelover

 

Hi and sorry you find yourself on here, but there are a lot of lovely ladies who will be able to help and support you through this.

 

What you are feeling is totally natural, especially as you had prepared yourself for the potential of an op this week.  From the day I was diagnosed to the day of my op it was 3 weeks, one thing I found was it was useful to have that time to prepare knowing that I would not be able to do too much for several weeks after, I made loads of stuff for freezer etc.

 

The feeling of it happening to someone else is natural as well, I am sure that all the other ladies on here can relate to that.  Sometimes now it is only when I look at my scar that I realise that this really did happen.

 

The thing is now have small milestones, so the first one is your op on 10 April.  What surgery are you planned for?

 

Never worry about coming on here if there is anything we can help with we will.  There is also the helpline who are really wonderful if you need to actually talk to someone.

 

Helena xxx

Thank you for your replies, it is good to know others in the same situation, it just seems so bewildering!

 

Back to hospital this morning. Nothing too awful on MRI so it’s back on Friday for mastectomy. Fitted everything in this morning pre op bloods and physio feel a bit shell shocked.  Now just need preparation for sentinel node. Managed to fit in a quick haircut too.

Hope to be able to tell you that all went well and good luck to everyone in the same situation.

Xxx

Hi over70 good luck for Friday hope all goes well and your back on here to let us know xx

Glad to hear you are ok and that you enjoyed your takeaway , have a lovely weekend xx

Hello, I have my op on 12th April, got diagnosed end of Feb so feels like such a long wait.

 

i too am feeling a bit distant, numb, like my feelings have withdrawn, have not cried which actually think would be good thing.

 

i got stage 2 invasive growth and DCIS.

 

Will have same as you done, lump and main lymph nodes taken, then wait two weeks for results, all being well then radiation and hormone tablets.

 

one thing I am finding helpful is to offload my feelings in a journal, which I like doing anyway.

 

Also crochet relaxes me if not busy.

 

I have my pre assessment monday 27th March, then have to see anethatist, surgeon, so many apointments.

 

Maybe we could share our journey as so similar and at same time?

 

 

I was at hospital 6 hours, travel time on top!

 

The clinic was busting at the seams!

 

I saw nurse who did pre op, I am organised personnto took scripts, list of all my specialists, cause I have a lot health issues.

 

She arranged appointment today to see anethatist as so many complex issues, asthma, allergy to contrast dyes, bladder that closes shop when drugged!!! :slight_smile: not nice though.

 

One good thing was being recruited into a reaserach project called 100,000 Genomes, trying to improve tretaments. They do my full genome in depth, I will get results and it can change tretament I have if needed. Feeling I could help made a horrid day a bit brighter.

 

I waited a long time till clinic ended to see breast care nurse but worth it.

 

She examined me and explained even after 4 weeks since biopsy I still deeply brused inside and tissues swollen and lumpy. Which was relief phew! :slight_smile:

 

I have been writing some poetry exploring my feelings is this something shared on this site somewhere?

Meri that’s interesting what you say about tissues still being lumpy and bruised weeks after biopsies.
I had about 15 mammo guided biopsies 3 weeks ago and now I’m like "this cancer is huge and hard now " whereas before I could barely feel it.
I’m just desperate to get it removed and get sorted.

Definately thought lump had grown but BCN reassured me and explained in details why breast gets lumpy, swollen, brusing takes long time to break down inside.

 

I had two core biopsies and brusied badly.

 

I diagnosed end Feb, got op 12th April so long wait.

 

But do call nurse if worried, we all so different, any reassurance is worth getting whilst waiting.

 

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It’s so miserable lying awake at night I resorted to drugs to knock myself out .The middle of the night is the worst time very hard to feel positive .

I can highly recommend morphine if they offer it to you !! !I found the cat
was better company than the dog in the middle of the night .Husband just snored or got annoyed I was sat up on internet at 4am…

Hope you get some sleep over the next few nights. Have been there and come out the other side of surgery I can assure you that once it is over and you are home you will sleep so well knowing the cancer is out of you. I didn’t sleep much in hospital, was in over night as I had bad reaction to the blue dye, they kept waking me every 30 mins to do blood pressure, pulse and check temp and skin colour. Was knackered when I got home but sleep is best healer after op.  

 

 

I was sent home with morphine but GP changed it to tramadol as morphine made me feel sick, can recommend tramadol!

 

Good luck and big hugs.

 

Heather

BTW I had a cancellation too, got 2 days notice and had it 12 days earlier than planned, so much easier as less time to worry!

Whatever gets you through the night as the song goes !!!

When I had morphine injection it made me feel like that when they gave me oromorph (liquid ) I just felt very relaxed and chilled out .You will have to see what works for you .Hopefully you will sleep well knowing the ****** has been removed ?

I sometimes think it would be better if they just sedated you for the time in between diagnosis and op as all the anxiety and lack of sleep really makes feel dreadful .

Hi fuertelover hope all goes well as I’m sure it will ?