Hi, this is my first post though I’ve been reading others for about a week now. I had my wound dressing removed today and am waiting for the 12th for the results of my lumpectomy and to find out what next! The nerves are starting now. What new hammer blow must I be brave about facing? Will my life every return to normal - what is normal going to be from now on?
Hiya
I was diagnosed Grade 3 BC last December, had lumpectomy, 6 months of chemo and 3 weeks of rads. The waiting is the worst part, it’s all ‘what if’s’, but once you get your treatment plan sorted out it DOES get easier. I coped with the chemo really well, no sickness etc., and the rads were a doddle. I can well remember waiting for my results and being absolutely terrified and convinced it was going to be really bad (it wasn’t as bad as I had expected), I must have gone through several bottles of wine that week. As all the ladies on here will tell you, you get an inner strength that you wouldn’t have thought possible and I have been upbeat and positive throughout. I know you can’t imagine it now, but you will be the same. I am triple negative so all my treatment is finished now and I am slowly getting used to no hospital visits etc. and having time to myself. As to returning to normal, I don’t think any of us will be the same as before, but that’s not necessarily a bad thing. You can still enjoy your life and do things you used to do before, I suppose you’re just a bit more ‘aware’ of things. Try not to think about it too much (easier said than done, I know) and pamper yourself a little - eat chocolate, drink wine, spend money (still works for me lol). As I said before, once you know what you’re dealing with, you will settle down. If you feel like you need to talk to someone, log on here, we’re always here to help. Honestly, it’s not as scary as you think and is certainly NOT a death sentence, there are lots of ladies who were diagnosed years ago and are still around and feeling good.
Lots of love & hugs
Julie xxxxx