Waiting for results on Friday so scared

I’ve been to the breast clinic a few times before for my left breast and it’s always come back as fibrous tissue, I had my son nearly 5 months ago and had to stop breast feeding when he was 8 weeks old. Recently I have noticed a fibrous area in my right breast but with a few lumps that just didn’t feel right so I got a referral. The appointment took a turn I have never experienced when I was given a mammogram and two biopsies, one of an area in my breast and one of a lymph node. The doctor was honest and says that she thinks it is cancer but it looks small. I am going out of my mind, I suffer with health anxiety so as you can imagine this is just the worst thing for me to be faced with. I feel sick to my stomach and am struggling to keep my thoughts straight, I’m so scared incase she is wrong and it’s worse than she thinks. I’m a new mum, I can’t deal with this ?

I have my biopsy results Friday too, I have an area that showed up on mammogram abnormal but nothing on ultra sound or physical, they took 5 biopsies of the area , I’m new to this as I have been screened at 48 as part of a test group , stay strong and don’t Google ! Please keep us up to date with your results x

Thank you for messaging back Shelly, I really hope everything is ok for you, please let me know how you get on too, the worst thing is being in limbo and not knowing, my head won’t stop wurring. I’m 28 and sickeningly just over a year ago my best friend was diagnosed at the same age as I am now, luckily after a lumpectomy and a few months of radio therapy and now on tomoxofen she is doing amazingly but I just can’t get my head around the fact that this could be happening to me too. I’m doing all I can to stay busy over the next few days, nighttime is the worst right now when I wake and have time to think xx

Hi ladies, The waiting on results is the absolute pits, it was the lowest I felt throughout my diagnosis and treatment , your brain can process facts however bad they are but its so hard to deal with the Unknown, you go around in circles and drive yourselves batty! The Drs don’t always get it right and we have had ladies who have been told they are certain it will be cancer for them to come back with a clear result, it does happen! 

there isn’t anything I can say to stop you feeling like this at the minute , it’s something all of us here have been through and we know how awful it is, If you are diagnosed you will find a way to cope, we’ve been through the lot here between us and will support and help in anyway we can, you certainly are not on your own ? Xx Jo 

Yes the waiting is like torture, I have been so upset and angry and unfortunately it’s being taken out on hubbie ! What time is your appointment?

Thank you Jo, that means a lot, I have been speaking to people on my anxiety group who went through the same after having a baby and their lumps were blocked ducts or fibrous tissue, I am just hoping that this is the case for me, In the last 6 months I have even pregnant, given birth, breast fed, stopped breast feeding, and I’ve gone back on the pill, I am just trying to hold on to the fact these lumps could be hormonal, it doesn’t stop me from being terrified and I’m loosing my mind that this feeling just won’t go away, I feel so sick, tired, like I want to eat like I don’t want to eat, like I want to cry like I want to scream, I just don’t know what to do with myself ? I woke at 2am this morning and sat over my babies cot sobbing my heart out, ive never been so scared in my life.

Smelly my appointment is at 10.20 on Friday morning so luckily an early one so I can get it done and know what the hell is going on. When do your results come through? I’m keeping everything crossed for us both. This limbo is just the worst place to be xxx

I can laugh a little right now because predictive text just changed Shelly to smelly!!! I’m so sorry!!! ???

Its so cruel you are having to face this with a new baby to care for, its awful at anytime but I can only imagine how traumatic it is for you when you should be at your happiest, Life stinks at times and its almost like you have to pay a price for being happy, thats certainly how i felt, started last year with so much to look forward to then in March the ground was swept from beneath us with my diagnosis, i was so so angry at it daring to shatter my lovely life and family , i could have murdered someone i was so full of rage and self pity! Looking back I thought i would have coped better but you just cannot when you are under threat and I have never been so scared, waking my husband several times a night in utter terror, it was just awful but i gradually picked myself up and got through it, my point is if you are diagnosed you wont always feel like you do now, self preservation and sheer bloody mindedness will kick in and you will confront it head on! Lets keep hoping you will never have to worry about it all again but just remember we are here and weve got the T shirt between us on the forum!! ? Xx 

Lol I get my results at half one , let us know how you get on x

Good luck for tomorrow , my heart is pounding out of my chest tonight , I will keep my fingers crossed for both of us for tomorrow x

Wishing you so much luck too Shelly, I did the worst but best thing and had a lot of drinks with a very close friend last night, it was so nice not to be worried sick until now. I’ve just woken up and I’m instantly terrified but I’m going to stay positive for us both. Please let me know how you get on and I will do the same. Sending nothing but positive vibes for us both xxxxx

Keeping everything crossed for you ladies, please let us know how it goes Xx 

I had a call from the breast nurse, I have fibrosis, no treatment needed and I don’t have to go for the appointment, I can’t tell you how relieved I am , my whole world had turned upside down the last 2 weeks

Shelly I am so over the moon for you, that is such great news, Im afraid it’s not such great news for me, well it’s bad but good news, I have breast cancer, but the majority is pre cancerous and a few cells going into cancer, I am having an MRI within the next two weeks and then will be booked in for a lumpectomy and then either chemo or radiotherapy when we know more. I am in shock but I’m going to try and take each step as it comes. Xxx

I’m sorry for your news , I can’t even begin to imagine how you feel right now, I feel drained after the last few weeks it has had a knock on effect with me and hubbie too , I wish you all the best, I’m sure once you know what the treatment will be you will feel more positive, I will still lurk on the threads because all you ladies inspure me ? x