I had early call for mammogram I’m 48. Called back as calcification found in left breast. Had another mammogram, ultrasound on breast and armpit (nothing seen) and then biopsy (that was an interesting experience). Waiting for my results on 7/2 is such a nightmare. My sensible head is telling me to stop worrying but I just can’t help thinking the worst. I feel like I’m in a black hole and can’t get out. I know that sounds dramatic and others are going through a lot worse but I can’t help it. What happens next.
All I can say is we all know how awful the waiting game is (and there’s a LOT of waiting if you are unlucky enough to have a positive diagnosis). However, you are in the best hands and they are being very thorough. The fact that they have got so far and not used the dreaded words augurs well but, as you’ve worked out, there’s always a chance unfortunately. Most breast problems are not breast cancer, if that helps. Do take someone you trust with you on Friday. They can take notes if necessary because your head may be spinning. Hopefully it won’t and you’ll come out shaking with relief and need a good hug or someone to have a stiff drink with.
As for others being “a lot worse,” there’s a level playing field in breast cancer. If you don’t have it, you have still experienced the same fear so never play down your experience please. If you do, and it’s been caught early, that still doesn’t make you less significant than someone with a more extensive spread of the disease.
Take good care of yourself this week. Focus on your emotional wellbeing because that’s taken a huge blow - and good luck. I’ll be getting my MRI results (15 months after diagnosis) the same day so I’ll think of you x