Hi, I posted on here earlier but it seems to have disappeared??
This is my first visit today as have spent the last 24 hours fretting over my biopsy results and in the early hours of the morning I couldn’t sleep yesterday I found refuge in this forum, trying to focus on the good results stories but also gaining strength from the not so good on how to deal with whatever card is dealt on Friday when I get my results…
I basically visited my GP a couple of weeks ago with an indentation/dimple on my left breast and given my family history (mum and big sis both had BC) she referred me to the breast clinic which I visited yesterday. Saw the doc who did a scan then when he saw a lump he sent me up to xray to have an ultrasound and the radiologist said he could see the lump and did a biopsy. All of this came as a bit of a shock to me as couldn’t actually feel a lump myself and was just thinking they would look at the indent and send me home saying it was nothing. They then made an apt for me to come back to the hospital on Fri to see the consultant after the breast meeting in the morning, obviously am know rather anxious…
My sis and my husband are both coming with me (is that a bit of an over reaction??) and I am just hoping against hope that it is good news as my mum is currently in the hospice with secondary bone mets and quite poorly now after being diagnosed with them 3 years ago so everyone has already got so much to cope with… I know I would get thru it as have some fantastic friends and a brilliant husband and rest of my family to help me, but really don’t want to have to put everyone thru it all again. My sis has done amazingly and was so strong if it is bad news I will endeavour to be like her 
My last mamo was in May this year and apparently all clear (I’m 43 but have been put on the yearly mamo prog due to family history) but the worrying thing for me was that I couldn’t actaully feel a lump but could def see it on the US screen. Has anyone else had a similiar experience??
This is a brilliant site and I have followed the advice not to google anything but even as a nurse myself it is hard not to think “what if??”
Here’s hoping by Fri I can be on here posting positive news which I know will help others as those stories have helped keep my strength over the last couple of days.
Keep strong everyone, xxxx 
Yes, I couldn’t feel a lump. Neither could 3 doctors. I had had surgery on the boob several years before and so there was some scar tissue. My boob just didn’t feel right, the nipple became sore, with dry and cracked skin. GP thought it was just a bit of eczema, and I thought it was a bit of nipple rub as I’d started doing some running after a bit of a hiatus. GP said prob nothing to worry about but go for breast screening anyway. I was planning to visit hairdressers straight after the screening, as I was so sure nothing to worry about. Unfortunately, the next time I visited the hairdressers was to get it all cut off in preparation for chemo. When the GP found out, she rang me at 8pm on a Friday to say how sorry and shocked she was! I have some dark moments, but honestly, getting cancer has, in some ways, changed my outlook on life for the better. I tell you this because though we fear the very worse, the reality is very rarely as bad as what we imagine. As you have been reading, we do cope, sometimes much better than we would ever have imagined. I wish you the best of news, but just in case it isn’t, don’t freak out, it will be treatable, I am very sure.
Just to say hi. This is new to me and I’m in shock.feels comforting to not bo so isolated.xx