Hi Smartie,
been thinking of you, how are things?
love, Moijanxx
Thanks Moiijan. Still here but woken up in pain for first time in months. Waiting to see a hospice doctor. But they are unlikely to know what is going on as I have not been scanned since July…
Hope you are OK.
Tournesol x
Hello tournesol and smartie
Sending love and huge hugs to you both.
xxx
Smartie
We are all glad to hear from you but sorry you have so many problems to cope with.
If the sleeping tablets help …then take them as you body will b resting and you will not have to count sheep during the night like most of us do !! Bought a sleep mask but the thing keeps moving around and I never know where it will end up !!
Hugs xxxx:relaxed:
Hi Smartie, good luck with the rads appt, so sorty about the eyesight, what a bugger!
am off to cehmo now, but your on my mind and in my prayersxx
Moijanxx
Tournesol, sorry to hear about the pain, yes maybe ask for a scan…will help them to help you.
you are in my prayers and thoughtsxxx
Moijanxx
Hi Tournesol and Smartie
Just popping in to see how you are both doing. I do hope you are both ok.
Smartie how did you get on with the radiotherapy people with your eye. It is so hard for you having trouble with your stomach and then to lose your sight in one eye is too much this disease is so cruel.
Tournesol are you still in pain or has the Dr been able to help you we have not heard from you for a while.
You both are in my thoughts and I send my love and (((((hugs))))) xxx
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Hi Tournesol and Smartie,
was just reflecting…I wonder if you realise how much you mean to us all?
I realise many of the family at bcc have known you both much longer than I, and that you dont really know me, but honestly, I often find myself thinking about you both, wishing I could just ‘pop in’ and meet you, have a chat/gentle hug etc… This forum is a wonderful venue to share help, love and suggestions, but I would love to actually meet people when they are having a tough time… Its harder when you cant see people.
anyway, rest assured, you both do mean a lot to us all and are in our thoughtsxx
Moijan ?
Just wanted to echo what Moijan said. It was just what wanted to say but I’m rubbish at writing things. They always come out wrong.
Anyways you are both in my thoughts every day and I check in to see if you’ve posted regularly. Lots of love and hugs xxx
Smartie, good luck tomorrow…my thoughts are with you. Lets hope the treatment helps.
hugs,
Moijanxx
Hi Smartie
Good luck for tomorrow I do hope you cope ok with that mask I am sure they will help you to feel more comfortable with it. There must be so many who feel scared about wearing one of those I remember my father who had one made he was really nervous but then seemed ok with it.
I will be thinking about you tomorrow best wishes sending loads of love and (((((((hugs))))))) xxx
Smartie
It’s good to hear from you but it does sound uncomfy but if it helps you …it will b worth while.
Sending u loads of hugs xcc
Dear Smartie
I am so pleased you got through the making of the mask well done girl so lets hope the rads go ok too. I do hope it will kill that alien in your eye and give you some peace.We will all be with you in spirit Smartie I expect you will be sore for a while after all those blasts. I know what you mean when they run out of the room and leave you on your own with just the machine. But good luck for next week 
Tournesol are you ok I am thinking off you
Love and ((((hugs)))) xxx
Smartie, only just seen this thread. I would be so worried about the mask, being a bit clastrophobic, so you have done brilliantly. Hope it is all going well.
Tournesol and Jan…always thinking of you too.
Love to all. xx
Hi Smartie, how is it going?
hi Tournesol, how are you doing?
love and hugs,
Moijanxx
Dear Smartie
So sorry you are feeling rough you need your strength for next week. I do hope the rads will give you back some vision in that eye. I can understand you feeling down with everything thats against you. The liver bloods are not always right a ct scan is a much clearer indication as to how the liver mets are going or so my onc told me this week.
I am glad you are able to let out your feelings on this site I think we need to express our thoughts and feelings to poeple who understand and I want you to know we are all here for you to cyber hold your hand and give you big hugs.
Tournesol still thinking of you too
and (((((hug)))))
Smartie
So nice to hear from you …we are all holding hands for you.
Sorry you are having probs but hopefully things will get better for you.
Meanwhile enjoy some nice autumn sunshine .
Carolyn xxc???
Smartie, Hi. Nice to hear from you.
sorry you feel so awfulxx And its fine to feel scared, we all would feel the same, but im sure they will help you through it.
Liver bloods…I think Marirose has a point because even tho my tumour markers are dropping…my liver function test results have always been pretty awful…my onc give me a print out of my bloods and every time…he says’ dont worry about the. Liver results’ . So they really arent reliable!
like everyone else, am really hoping your radiotherapy gives you some vision imvprovement…I dont think they would offer it unless they felt it would help, so fingers, toes and legs all crossed here!
my own vision is not as good as it was…I think its the cancer drugs…the eye unit keeps getting conflicting results…also my last letter to the gp said ’ her optic discs look suspicious! Just that, not why or anything…so im thinking…blame the b chemo!
you are in our thoughts all the time Smartie, do keep us posted, how ever you are feelng.
lots of love, and hugs, Moijanxx
Smartie, how was the first rads? I guess its maybe daily?
let us knowxx
love Moijanxx