So I’m 4 weeks post mastectomy and recon already had 2 WLE and full node clearance , had chemo already and found out on Monday that the mastectomy achieved clear margins and cancer removed. But today whilst moisturising I found what feels like a grisly lump by my right collar bone and I am freaking out. I know I can’t do anything until Monday - my husband been great and tried reassuring me around “you’ve had chemo, you’ve had an MRI, you’ve had thorax CT” but still I’m panicking… when do we get a bit of peace 
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I found a lump after surgery and radiotherapy and quietly went into meltdown - it turned out to be an oil cyst also referred to as fat necrosis which I believe is quite common. I’m sure it won’t be anything to worry about but understand how you’re feeling . Hang in there and contact your BCN on Monday and try to resist the urge to
Keep feeling for it xx
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you are on high alert mode and you will always be now, think each one of us always remains on high alert after you’ll get it checked out next week when you contact your team and we all understand 
you want it checking over now, right now your being vigilant which is good and your team will understand when you contact them and they will be glad your being vigilant for want of better words having a breast cancer diagnosis is a real head **** it sends you into orbit, down rabbit holes, off to narnia and a moon landing and beyond bcn and all of us here have got hold of you and your teams got you but we get it, the 
gremlins are yanking at your reasoning right now and no matter what anyone says us or your husband you won’t be able to lock the door on it till you’ve spoken to your team in your mind you just have to shove it behind the door and seal it shut with some plastic foam or send the bear in there from mountain lion story that strawberry blonde wrote on here and let the bear smash tge gremlins till Monday 
Shi xx
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Thank you - I’m chilling with my dogs - they always help ground me when I need it - I will ring my BCN on Monday I’m sure they think I’m a Hypochondriac
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glad you are having a chill with your dogs your team will think no such thing, they care about you and they support you as well as treat you through all this, they do understand and they have and are helping many through and they will continue to care and support you after all this too so please be kind to yourself and don’t ever think your a pain, hypochondriac or being silly a diagnosis of breast cancer can strip you and even the most self reliant, strong control nuts can find themselves feeling more vulnerable than they have ever felt, but the kind of strangers is all around you always remember this it can help when the get in your reasoning Shi xx
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Thank you Shi - I know you are right - fell better for sharing in here as no matter what my family say they have not been through it - but I’ll take the positive vibes and hold onto them until I know what’s what x
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Kindness of strangers (sorry typo) Shi xx
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