Hi everyone
I’ve not been on for a while - been trying to live rather than exist.
I had my exchange surgery in March, and they have both (had bilateral in Aug last year) kinda settled down now. I feel completely wonky and it upsets me. I was 38E pre BC, now am around a B/C cup and it’s just not enough. It’s not the surgery I am unhappy with, it’s the size.
Have any of you gone back to your consultant afterwards and then successfully got them changed to a larger size? It’s affecting me emotionally, as I don’t want my partner touching me and I can’t bear to see myself naked - I cry a lot at that to be brutally honest.
Just hoping for a little light at the end of the tunnel. I’m going for my check up on Monday, they’re going to see how they’ve settled etc. Just wondering what chances I have of bigger implants?
Thanks
J xx
Hi J
I see you are curious to see if anyone comments on my query regarding the injections of fat. I was like you, I wasn’t as big as an E cup, but I was a slim line 34 DD, very slim with lovely DDs, and it was terribly unsettling after bilateral mastectomies to have my reconstruction which is basically a C cup, occasionally I buy a D cup, but it depends on the bra, and that’s usually because although a C cup is adequate for the actual size of the breast, sometimes with an underwired bra a D cup is a bit more accomodating and doesn’t rub against the bottom of the implants. I was in the middle of a divorce when this happened to me, I felt like a freak, I have to be honest, and it took me a long time to start to gradually feel like myself again. When I met my current partner of two and a half years (we now live together) I didn’t even have my nipples tattooed, so it has been a hell of a thing to come to terms with. You see yourself as you were, your whole confidence is built upon the person you once were, and going down a couple of sizes is a major shock, and not only that, but for your breasts to be hard lumps, not the lovely soft breasts that men love so much, is very upsetting. But basically you gradually get used to them, mine look great in a low cut top etc, but I wanted my Plastic Surgeon to put bigger implants in to get rid of the creasing, where I have put a bit of weight on, not that I am overweight, but when these implants were put in was when I was at my lowest weight, I was just under 8 st, and therefore as I have got well, and healthier I have put on weight. However, Plastic Surgeon won’t put in bigger implants, will only inject the fat to try and fill them out a bit. When he put these implants in he said for my size etc these were perfectly big enough, but he wasn’t really taking into account what I had before. I suppose if I went private, another Surgeon might be prepared to try, but I am scared that if things go wrong I have no where to go, so contemplating the injections of fat. I know there are a lot of girls on this site who would say we have to be lucky still to be here, and we should be happy with what, and I truly am, I know things could be so much worse, and don’t want to tempt fate, but I so desperately want to feel the way I did before.
I am sure there will be others out there whose Surgeons might have been more obliging, and hopefully they will reply.
Julie
Hi Poannie - Like you haven’t been on for a while - how are you getting on?
I think you can get them changed if you want - my sureon told me that now I was entitled to plastic surgery for always on the NHS. You have been through loads and deserve to feel good about your body so thikn you should ask.
I have replied to Julie’s post about fat transfer so will let you know how I get on Monday - quite liking the sound of fat coming off my stomach into my boobs but not sure if I can cope right now with more surgery.
Speak soon
S x x x
Hi poannie,
I had bilateral recon last May 07, I used to be a nice 34 C pre cancer, once the recon had settled I went down to a B cup. When I last went to see my plastic surgeon he said that he wasn’t happy with some of the scarring as the scars were quite wide on my breasts and he would see me in 6 months (Nov 07) to discuss re-opening the scars and make the scars line thinner. He asked if I was happy with the recon, I told him that I would have liked to have been abit bigger but felt abit selfish as I should be grateful that I have had the recon, he told me that if I wanted to go bigger he would be more than happy to do it, he stated that he wasn’t finished with me until both he and I was 100% happy so I’m well happy knowing that early next week I’m going to be the size I want to be and have the tatooing done.
Ask your surgeon hopefully you’ll be pleasantly surprised, you have been through alot and deserve to feel good about yourself again.
Good luck, let us know how you get on
Karen
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Dear J
How about seeing your GP and telling him/her how you feel? He may refer you back to your PS. Or you could ask your breast care nurse if you can have an appointment with the PS. I’m having my expanders changed for implants in September, so hope I get the correct size!
Good luck,
Maddy x
Hi everyone
Thank you for the comments and advice.
I spoke with my consultant today (my 3 month check up) and he has agreed that my current silicone implants are not right for my size and frame. He has booked me in for further surgery on 30 July. I will be having these removed and larger implants installed - I currently have around 515mls in each implant - the new ones will have around 750mls (minimum)
I know I am going to be sore and tight for a while afterwards whilst my body and skin adjust to the new sized implant - but I honestly feel that this will help me not only physically, but mentally too.
J x