So glad your GPs back Doz… mind you, the thought of you working Zoppyd (Zopicloned?) is very scary!!! I’ll virtually hold your other hand Emmmy, and Doz and I will giggle as we try not to look… Hope that’ll make you feel better !!! A milestone to tick off… and a huge achievement for all of us… we made it this far… and we STILL have our humour and our compassion. That really is an achievement…
hope it all goes well, and that you remember the pain killers!
Flutter gently…
Jane xx
Hi everyone
Emmy: Thinking of you for tomorrow, lovely. Walk tall, breeze in there, you’ll be out in no time. Whatever the results, you need to know but I’m sure they’ll be fine. I’ll virtually be beside you along with Doz and Jane… if they’re holding both your hands, what can I hold??? Promise I won’t look either, I’ll just wear sunglasses!!
Doz: Bet you feel all this trouble is never ending, flutterby. I really hope you get some relief from it all now your doctor’s back. It seems a long time to wait for your eye appointment… is that good, i.e non urgent??? Is it still as bad or has it improved? Sending healing thoughts to you both.
Janice: I’m pleased to say I’m dischared from the hospital physio but I just daren’t eat chocolates. All that sitting around for so long has me at an all time record high with weight. Yes, as you say, we are all here for each other, which is lovely. Happy Birthday to your OH, by the way!
Jane: Have you found the Feraro Rocher?? Get those spoons down the back of the sofa. Good job they’re wrapped 'cos of the fluff!!
Cackles: Interesting to hear you’re doing Family History. I’ve been researching for about 20yrs and I find it fascinating. Have you gone very far back? Some of mine on my tree must be as far back as 1500’s, I think.
Hope I’m not too late Emmy with the good wishes for tomorrow!
Fluttering out for tonight, friends.
Ami xx
Hi Flutterbys
Vikki finally had an ok night 
new meds (nortriptyline an Epilepsy drug which controls spasms and relaxes muscles)and a new memory foam mattress… Dr I love you No she didnt supply the mattress ha ha! that was a mummy flutterby treat! But today my girl is returning a bit
Just had my 6 month Lymph check up and Dare I say it as I dont want to tempt fate… Some improvement WOOOOOHOOOO!!!
Ami I asked the Dr why the delay in having my eye looked at and she said normally if the retina is going to detatch it does it straight away… and it is’nt uncommon to have a partial detatchment as we approach our 60’s so i’ve done well being 62
It’s still there (my imaginary friend) but it has gone a slight bit smaller and paler,but still got the flash in the corner off my eye so fingers and toes crossed it stays the same till April… OR goes!!!
My results!!! all good slight damage on rib, hence achy pain, but again as we all know R/T does cause damage to cells etc, Dr has refered me to see a physio for the pain in my shoulder… again from R/T she said it needs a good deep massage to ease the muscle off… and she has also seen that before… such a relief to hear those words and thankgoodness she didnt retire when she had her baby… cant believe how these past 2 days is starting to lift my spirits!!
Sun is shining and all seems to be sorting itself out what more could I ask tho its forecast rain tomorrow… today is good
Hope you found your Ferrero Rochas Jane i’d be hunting high and low if I knew there were still some left somewhere!!! Yes Ami i’d have the spoons down the back of the chairs too xx
Em stop squeezing my hand!!! I’m not looking!!! I so hope it all went well and you had a good lunch with Colin, Pity you let go of the said hand ha ha ha!!! Could have done with a lunch out…!!! xx
Janice xx it seems ages since we heard from you its so nice to hear you are keeping well and as for the wine and cake go on girl enjoy :)hope your O.H had a good day.xx
Well i’ve treat myself to a few bedding plants so i’m going to have a potter and an hour of lovely fresh air
Love and hugs to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxhugsxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi flutterbys! I can’t believe how nice the radiographer was,she almost held MY hand! not quite but was reassuring and told me to let her know if it hurt at all. So glad I did take pain killers but all the same it actually didn’t hurt as much as the previous ones I had,I think the reason I went daft was that the last time I had a mammo it was before my first WLE and I had wires sticking out! The woman that day was so ‘professional’ not a word of support just got on with it and I bled all over her machine! I almost heard the silent humph of disapproval as she cleaned the machine! Thankfully it was a really kind woman today,though she did say they may have to send for me again in two weeks if the doc doing the ‘reading’ isn’t happy with the results as due to the scarring etc it can be difficult to give clear results so I may have to go and have it done at a different angle? She did however say she was happy so fingers and toes crossed I don’t get a recall! Hubby bless him was totally happy that I decided to shop! I bought some clothes for our holiday to Aus in Sept and it was a gorgeous day so we made the most of it! No not being good like Doz !!! It was lovely to just have a bit of a splurge and take in the sunshine!
ami and Jane you are a bad women you gave me a mental picture of you all in the room with me and I imagined you giggling like naughty schoolgirls! I did tell the poor woman what I was smiling about and she told me she thought this site was really special for us all to which I did reply that I would have been lost without the wonderful kindness and support of all the flutterbys.
I am happy for you Doz you have had a bit of a battering so all good news is fab! Take care all and thank you for the lovely messages of support BIG group hug Em xxxxx
What a lovely post, Emmy! After bleeding all over at your last one, I can understand how apprehensive you’ve been. Going shopping in the sunshine and making the most of things - very upbeat. It made me titter at you imagining us all there with you but also brought a tear to think we helped you along, flutterby. Anyway, despite the sunshine today, I’ve put my sunglasses away since you got home.
Glad things are also on the up for you Doz. Lymph check, Vikki getting a bit better and your eye and everything. What a lovely mum to buy the mattress. I would hate to be without my memory foam, now. Hope you enjoyed your gardening. Got the lawns mowed today and the garden looks much more like spring and with all the bulbs in flower, looks like someone cares again after the dreariness of winter. Oh and I forgot, received some mail order clothes today for my fat wardrobe!!
Your posts make me send an extra big hug to you both.
Ami xx
Hello ladies,
I’m so glad that it went well Emmy. I hope your results come through quickly too! Well done you.
Doz, just to add to what the others have said, I’m glad that things are starting to settle down for you and Vikki. Great that you have your own GP back and on form too.
Well done getting into your garden Ami. I did plant a pieris at the weekend where the little lovelies like to play hide and seek because all my plants get trampled down. Here’s hoping that it survives.
Oh and your ‘fat’ wardrobe. Such a tricky move to make but it made me smile. I love the way that my new target weight is my old fat weight!
Take care lovelies x
Hello Flutterbys
I’ve just spent ages reading through all the last few posts as with my head being all over the place these past couple of weeks I knew I had’nt read them all properly and digested them tut tut!!!
Jane I selfishly missed the part about you having had to care for your daughter… its so hard when your children are ill you want to take it all away and sometimes its just not possible… which makes you feel as if you’ve failed them somehow 
I know were not superhuman but just to be able to make a difference is so important to us…I must tell you I had’nt taken Zopiclone before I went to work I had slept really heavy on it the night previous and was still a bit fuzzy headed the next day… it soon wore off
Poor Vikki is having another bad day and at 6 rang me at work during one of her spasms… I felt dreadful having had to leave her on her own but I was’nt sure work would understand (but our senior nurse sent me straight home) now this has happened I wont be going back till we can get something done…
Em sweetie I love that you went shopping after your mammo bless ya didnt I tell you, you’d be out of there quicker than grease lightening once it was over I think I ran!!!and to cap it all the sun shone for you
Ami there’s nothing wrong with a fat wardrobe ha ha bless ya, we all have one!! Mine includes lots of elastic waisted items and lovely baggy tops, they make me feel slim again… in my dreams!!!
Janice… from the bottom of my heart thankyou so much for my beautiful card, it is so lovely and must have taken an age to get so perfect… the words filled me up what a wonderful keepsake through all this madness bless you xxhugxx
Crabbit well done on the new weight target Ha ha!! were in this together girlies we ought to have a weekly weight watching going on, cos i’d sure love to loose about a stone… and a bit!!! but need to have a goal to get my head round it
Well its time for a feet up and PJ night Vikki’s sound asleep and its been another silly crazy busy worrying day all round… and I found some chocolate krispies so me thinks its sweet treat time…
Love and big hugs to all you lovely flutterbys xxxxxxxxxxhugxxxxxxxxxx
Morning Girlies
I’ve just had work on the phone to reply to my call to them this morning to say I would’nt be able to do my late shift today as Vikki has to see her Dr and only has me to take her…
I’ve been told i’m being given the 6hrs as carers leave… then thats it!!! NO MORE TIME OFF…???
NHS??? FAMILY FRIENDLY??? I THINK NOT!!!
Really dont need this!! how am I expected to look after other poorly people when my daughter needs me more???
OOOH i’m such a whinge bag… sorry!!
Want some sun want some peace want some sleep want some hassle free days want my girlie well
Want want want… stamp stamp stamp!!!
Feeling like a frazzled flutterby and i’ve put 2lb on eeek!! so lets rephrase that comment
A FAT frazzled flutterby Oh my!!!
Love and hugs all round does anyone fancy a group hug xxxxxxxxxxxxhugsxxxxxxxxx
Big hug from me. Agree NHS not that caring towards its own staff.Hope things get better x
Thankyou Happyfeet I so agree sadly xxx I love your name makes me wanna dance!!!
where,s my spoons?? xxhugxx
Sending both lovely! Mahoosive hugs and lots of spoons! Em xxxx
Sending a big gooey chocolate cake for the spoons and a big caring hug for the soul. Hope tomorrow is better but not fatter!
Ami xx
OOooh Doz… that’s rubbish (as in grotty!) It just makes you take time off sick, and then your Bradford score goes up and… just rubbish! Have a hug… and a box of spoons…
Emm… so glad you were OK - we giggled a lot! good that you heard us behaving like schoolgirls!
Yes, I found the Ferero Rocher - DD had put them away in a kitchen cupboard in a logical place, but one that we would never have thought of!
I went to see Best Marigold Hotel last night - if you want a laugh - go!!! fab… I was exhausted (having been called out just after 6am) but I came out energised from the laughter and delight…
I’m supposed to be doing housework, but I’m on here instead… naughty naughty! Off tomorrow, and meeting a friend I’ve known since she was 16 - she’s now a consultant oncologist! Havent’ seen her for over a decade, so that’ll be good… on call over the weekend - fingers crossed!
Flutterbies, some of you are getting squished… I want to protect you! So flap gently or not, depending on your strength…
love Jane
Hello flutterbies, esp those of you having a rotten time. Sending spoons to you Doz! xxx
Spoons cake hugs and love truly wonderful flutterbys
Didnt I tell you my Dr is a star…she’s put Vikki on Morphine patch’s and done the urgent referal… she agreed something is’nt right and is’nt wasting anymore time… thankgoodness and at last sigh!!!
As for work i’m afraid I spoke out oooer!!!
I rang to tell them about Vikki and all that was said was you will be coming in for your double shift tomorrow wont you?? Here we go girls he said she said… I was speechless and it was quickly followed with well she is’nt a youngster so she will be ok on her own…splutter cough AAAARGH!!! She had a fit of sorts last night???
I replied yes I will be coming in as i’m not allowed any carers leave anymore am I? (I have only been given 6hrs in total???) they said no… so I said i’ll be there BUT i’m not happy at having to leave her and if anything happens I WILL be going home!!! SILENCE!!
I understand that a ward has to be staffed but the NHS have a bank nurse system for situations such as this
Enough!! All the moaning in the world wont change it so time to let it go and keep my fingers crossed she will be ok
I’ve been so sad today watching the news and hearing of the deaths of those 6 poor young lads in Afghanistan how fragile life is and such a waste, bless them! R.I.P
I’m so glad i’ll have my boy back to hug in 10 days time… But how hard it must be for the parents and family of the boys in combat
it must be my hormones or lack of them but every time its been reported on today i’ve had to fight the tears back… its all I seem to do lately!
Well me dears food to cook for Vikki for tomorrow, packing up to do and uniform to iron… how exciting is my life
Love and hugs back in huge amounts xxxxhugsxxxx
Evening Doz, I was thinking of your Dan today with the terrible loss of wonderful young men. It is impossible to imagine how their poor parents feel. Thank goodness your son is home soon. As for the NHS…least said. They are the best people on earth at giving you a guilt complex. If you had gone to your GP with stress they would have accepted it…but you tried to work as much as you could. …There must be a moral to this story somewhere.
I am glad they are at last doing something to help her pain.
Take care of yourself …it can only get better
Big Hug
Cackles
Thanks for the kind words Cackles xx
Just about to go in and feel so guilty leaving her
Have a lovely day everyone loads of hugs xxxxxxxxxxx
Hugs Doz,
Sadly your horror story of a lack of support seems to be one I’ve come across a number of times within NHS. I am so glad Vicki is getting effective pain relief now and you are almost into single figures for Dan’s return.
I have got over my mini blip at work ( okay it was almost a total meltdown!) but now I’m glad I’m through it. I’m trying to live without taking lots of work home with me and get back to having fun with my job again, but it is much trickier when you haven’t planned everything down to the last detail. Much trickier, but far more realistic!
It’s so sad that the fun and creativity have been squashed out of the curriculum. It’s so sad that it’s all about work, work work and woe betide you if don’t grasp a concept in the first five minutes! Anyway I’ve deleted the rest of my rant!
I hope the rest of you are ok too, Ami, Janice, Jane, Emma and anyone else I have forgotten. Funeral for me today. Time to get moving.
Take care all.
carolyn xx
Well I have been for my wonderful reflexology today it really helps me and it is strange 'cos I do say I don’t know how but it does! Carolyn I agree but you don’t have to work for the NHS it seems to have spread throughout the work culture I work for a private company and hubby for a well known charity! Support and caring does seem to have gone from most walks of life which I find strange? The culture of profit and being a body seems to be everyone’s lot which is really sad.
Jane yes you were like school girls! I have just been chatting with the lovely volunteer who makes tea for the chemo ward and she had been to see the Best Marigold Hotel last night and said she was still giggling as we spoke at some of the goings on in the film!
ami I did find that all your kind words helped so much,I imagined you all holding hands around me and the picture that conjured up went through my mind and made me feel part of something quite special. For that I thank you all.
Hello to you Happy feet yes that makes me smile too!
Janice I hope you are keeping well flutterby? I am sure I have left someone out? If I have apologies we are growing and it is lovely to have more flutterbys on board to share with and we end up with a long list Yay!!
Doz I am so keeping my fingers crossed for you love it just isn’t fair! You really don’t need the stress right now and you could rightfully go off with it!it would serve them right!I know you don’t want to let anyone down but this pressure is so wrong! I am so hoping it will be a done deal by the time Afgan comes home.I hope you both come out of this day feeling a bit better, sending more spoons and a big hug.
Take care all and have a peaceful weekend.Big group hug! Em xxxx
Pic of my Fruit Bat Dog
Carolyn: I really must lose the weight I’ve put on since BC . I’ve been avoiding getting on the scales lately, but I took the plunge and was horrified which was good as it set me off determined to lose some and have lost a pound since Wed. The fat clothes are a few tops which will still look OK when the weight has gone. Emmy and I love pull on stuff but I have a tendency to ignore that voice which tells me my waist is fatter. Hope you manage to get by without bringing so much work home. Without the fun bit it drags you down.
Doz: Thought of you more than usual yesterday when I heard of the loss of the 6 soldiers. Hope things are now picking up a bit all round. You must feel terrible being torn between work and home, but you feel work’s got you and can call the tune. So you go right ahead and have that stamp! I’ll send some big tissues and I won’t make you sit on the naughty step! Big hug winging it’s way if it can make just a teeny bit of difference
Jane: Film sounds good, I thought it might be after seeing the ads. Hope you enjoyed your day with your friend. Much to talk about after all those years! Don’t burn yourself out at work this weekend.
Emmy & Janice & Cackles: Hope you’re feeling chirpy for the weekend. Have had friends call this morning with a lovely little bunch of Freesias. Smell is delightful. I have some Freesia bulbs to plant out so I might get a bit more gardening done if it’s fine. I’m afraid I’m a bit of a fair weather gardener but it’s encouraging now when I see the Clematis shoots sprouting and the buds on the trees bursting forth!
A hug each
Ami xx