Oh Jane! I’m already tucked up in my lovely warm bed
! Will be thinking of you! keep safe!!! NormsXxxx
Jane hope it doesn’t get too bad it was windy this afternoon so hope it stays away.At hospital 8 hours again they are so busy on the chemo ward.I left mr Grumpy and popped into the Maggie centre twice and it was so nice and very welcoming.I have booked a look good feel better session on 17th June and as its also man Monday Phil is going with me it will give him a chance to talk to other guys and I can have some me time.Hugs spoons to everyone We have only been back half an hour so p.js soon and glass of vino and Paul Ogrady love Janice xxx
big hugs norms, just start over tomorrow. i still feel surreal that ive even been on this journey, today after 3 days of work i managed a swim, good thinking time, but look at the other gym members and they dont recognise me, which is sad. i could start talking about all my woes but thats not fair. A young girl at work hs just lost her mum, probably only 50 something, with no warning, so i send her extra spoons,she must be so so shocked, bless her.
it helps me to take stock, that i have done my cancer journey for now and be grateful for my gorgeous family. xxx
Oooooh Janice those sessions are magic… I got lots of lovely freebeeies and still using some of them 
enjoy!
I hope you didn’t blow awat Jane I,ve got up this morning to find the garden chairs trying to gain entrance into next doors garden… It’s absolutely howling!
Hope the weather settles and you all have a lovely peaceful weekend xxxxxxhugxxxxx
Morning flutterbies and welcome Helen
Jane hope you and the caravan have survived the weather! Its really cold here today and wet.
Janice - I really enjoyed my LGFB session as well - a real treat and a bag full of goodies! Hope Phil’s chemo went ok.
Hope Vickys feeling better Doz and the house completion is signed sealed and delivered.
I went to see respiratory consultant yesterday, he was really nice, went thru everything, asked lots of questions - I really felt he’d got time for me. He doesn’t think it is C. More likely to be scarring from rads or a low lying infection that never gets killed (homophellis? something like that) off so he’s given me 6 week course of antibiotics - 1 250mg tablet a day and requested CT scan to have a good look. So feeling better about that. Saw GP in the afternoon and told her how frustrated I was with the memory thing and did she think it could be A/depressant said it could so trying lower dose. A very medical day yesterday but feeling better for it.
Hope everbody has nice long weekend with a bit of good weather?
Stella xxxxx
caravan survived, nd so did we. Put earplugs in at four am, and then slept. Not heard anything like the noise of the wind and rain last night. Made me think f the sailors out in it, and the birds being swept off their nesting ledges on the Farne Islands…
janice, LGFB sessioni went to was great - enjoy! Man Mondays sound good! What else did they have to offer?
Doz, how are you my friend?
stella, sounds reassuring…so good when you feel people have time for you
Ann - wise words…
been for a long walk along the beach in this mornings wind. Stopped and watched a kestrel hover for over ten mins still, despite the wind, amazing… having enough energy to do the walk was amazing too…
hugs and spoons to those that need them - special one for Norm…
There have just opened Maggies so still organising things while I was there someone came in and offered to do some keep fit sessions and they have yoga and pilates due soon and man Mondays is to encourage men to visit but there were a few men ther when I popped in.Jane glad you survived the night I think we will have a shortage of birds if this weather continues usually by now they are in the arden with their first brood but none up till now.aiat was funny a few weeks ago I thought some twigs etc had blown onto the bird table then down fle a hen blackbird with some more I fely awful discouraging her but it was a vulnerable spot for a nest.Hope everyone is managing to keep warm we have had to put heating on as its soooo cold.stella so glad you had some positivity from your apps love and hugs and spoons to those who need them janicexxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Getting ready to go home tomorrow :(. Best bit of holiday was definitely meeting up with the lovely Janice :). We’ve been coming up here for nearly 30 yrs and never had weather this bad. It has to improve, it’s June next week! Stocked up at the butcher & cheese shop this afternoon, tidied & cleaned a bit. Feet up time now…
hugsn’n spoons xx
Hi ladies!
my treatment is now complete, had last rad today! What a year, wouldn’t want to repeat it! Will dread that first mammogram.! I can’t really describe how feel! Mixture of emotions if that makes sense!
just got reconstructive surgery in a few months. Also have few more hairs on my head to cover my bald patch ;))
On sad note! My best friend has stayed away from me since my blip day! Not made contact or replied to my txt! I keep apologising for my really bad blip days! Think she must be fed up with my tears and off the handle comments as not normally like that! thought she would understand! Thought I would be celebrating the end of my treatment with her tonight!
Jane so glad you got throuh the night and thank you for the hugs
thanks to all you lovely ladies for your hugs and kind words!
Well going to have few glasses of bubbly with hubby! Will only be few, as become a lightweight since treatment started!
Big hugs to u all
Norm xxxx
Congratulations Norm on completing treatment - you are so right in saying you feel a complete mixture of feelings. I remember that the RT staff were all asking me if I was going to celebrate after my final zapping but I didn’t feel that way. Since my treatment I too have been a lightweight on the alcohol front but have found a liking for Prosecco - yum, yum. Hoping for little warm weather/sunshine this weekend as my OH has been working away all week and I am looking at spending some quality time with him. Might even persuade him to go to see the Great Gatsby. Helen
That’s great Norms you are feeling normal as when treatment is over its a whole new ball Game trying to come to terms with the new you but we have all been there and we are here for you now.Hope you enjoyed the champers and now onwards and upwards and try not to worry about mammogram I have now had 2 and they were okay.
Helen hope its a better weekend weather wise it has been so cold here today heating has been on love and hugs to all off to bed and hope to sleep Janice xxx
I don’t know if I said but last december I decided to have genetic testing for the BRCA 1 & 2 genes as I have such a family history of ovarian and BC. Well this morning the letter arrived and I just crumbled as I have been dreading it arriving…I could barely bring myself to open the envelope. Anyway, it’s good news I don’t carry the defective gene which means I can’t pass it on to my children as that was worrying me more than anything.
Norm…it must be such a relief to finish your treatment. When I was told I didn’t need any more I thought I would be elated but actually you just feel relieved and very tired of it all. 
Helen, with you on the liking for Prosecco!
Jane-you’re holiday sounds more like an adventure what with this very unseasonal weather we’re having.
Back to gardening now…though it’s almost too hot to weed
Jane xx
Helen , I also love prosecco! Can’t drink anything else as taste buds still not back to normal yet!!
Jane! it was a relief yesterday no more daily trips to the hospital. felt like it has been my second home over past year!
The fatigue really kicked in past week! Probably reason I’ve been an emotional wreck Everything coming to an end! Only thing is my hair which still tells me the journey I have been on!! OH was a applying miracle feed and grow to the plants asked if he could pour some my head!!:).
Janice! Your so right it is a whole new ball game! Not sure what the new me is going to be yet! It’s such a strange feeling when it comes to an end! You think your on your own now but thanks to this site and you wonderful ladies , I don’t feel so alone!!
Norm xxxxx
Oh and Jane what brilliant news, such a weight lifted from you! Norm xxxx
Halfway through my second of 3 nights and i,m absolutely melting 
weather has been fabulous today… what I finally caught of it and lo and behold the heating on the ward has been turned up??? OMG I feel as if i,m in the Med… enjoying hot days and sticky nights!!! OH I WISH!!!
Such good news Jane and I did smile when I saw your post Norm I remember that day well thinking i,d come home and celebrate but when it finally came around I think I slept most of the day in the chair!!! Getting to be a bit of a lightweight, drinking just does,nt agree with me anymore… I cant drink wine as it gives me migraine and if I drink my favourite tipple brandy and coke I get a hangover!!! and I dont like them!! How boring am I?
Called in to see my sister on the way to work and she is still on oxygen but is looking tons better…
Vikki has had her employment terminated we did expect it after all this time but it would,nt have hurt them to keep her on the books till we knew what the future holds, she,s never had sick pay from them so she has,nt cost them anything only now it will be on her records that she was sacked… so nasty in the greater scheme of things, she bent over backwards to keep the restaurant ticking over for over 5 yrs some weeks working 60/65 hrs and at one point didnt have any time off for over 7 months… not very loyal… tho they did say if you feel better we would gladly have you back!!! Think the answer to that speaks for itself!!!
Oh well coffee time i,m ready for a bucket full
Have a lovely bank holiday flutter gently and take good care xxxxxxhugsxxxxxspoonsxxxxxx
Elsa Jane great news yeeha.Not a prosseco drinker but partial to a nice Merlot or Shiraz as I find sometimes white wine gives me indigestion.Poor you Doz nothing worse than working in those conditions I can remember sweat dripping from me and a little old dear saying isn’t it cold ha ha.
We have actually had 2 warm sunny days but forcast not good again.Felt sorry for Phil as he has to keep out of the sun but he is feeling very tired so don’t suppose he was too bothered he isn’t so bad this time as they have given him Magnesium tablets to take so not suffering lightheadedness.Glad last one is on Thursday but then he has his op to come so still a horrid time.
Em GIJane hope you enjoyed hols even if the weather didn’t play ball it was still a break away do hope you have recharged your batteries.
Love hugs and spoons to everyone else love Janice xxxxx
p.s put lots of plants into garden today courtesy of a friend who has an allottment how kind some people are xxxx
Doz-poor Vicky; as if she hasn’t got enough on her plate at the moment. Glad to hear your sister is looking better though.
Mine’s a prosecco…or if I’m feeling flush a good bottle of chateau neuf du pape…yum.
The weather’s been glorious the last 2 days and I’ve been gardening like mad clearing the beds, planting veg seeds; transplanting perennials; putting in new plants; it’s been lovely. Yesterday I started gardening at 6am because I woke early and it was so peaceful at that time of day that I might do it more often during the summer months. The weather isn’t going to be so good today; I think rain is on the way so a bit of uni work then maybe a trip to the garden centre to fill a bit of a gap in my border!
Norm…I chuckled at the thought of putting miracle grow on your head. Have you read about Fast shampoo (Amazon) as that’s supposed to make your hair grow faster…some mixed reviews though and not cheap!
Janice- thinking of you and Phil; glad its his last chemo on Thursday but like you say this is only part of his treatment so sending you both wraparound flutterby hugs.
Love
Jane xx
Hi All,
the weather has been lovely here Sunday & today. Did manage to get to a NT property on Sunday, sat in the sun, walked and watched the wild deer. Didn’t make it to The Great Gatsby but watched the Hobbit on DVD - which we missed in the cinema because of my treatment. Today we focussed on the garden - I bought the plants and OH planted them - fab division of labour, I say. OH now left home for his digs as still working away from home in the week. I am gearing up to face work - busy week ahead.
Hope you all are faring well. Doz, hope the final “night” goes ok. JMR, Elsa, GIJ, Norm hope you have all had pleasant, relaxing weekends. Jmr and Phil, hope you have a good week.
Anyone any thoughts on hot flushes - I have been having them since chemo 3 last August but every now and again they become super-dooper intense and really cause me problems at night. Can’t think of anything I am doing differently that might impact on them - anyone else had this at all? I even refused the prosecco on the grounds that alcohol might make them worse - if indeed that is possible.
Helen
Morning Flutterbys from a very damp and wet Humberside!
i have some very interesting thoughts on hot flushes but unfortunately I,d be banned from the site if I uttered them ;(
Helen you may want to skip this paragraph… 2 and a half yrs on and I,m still having massive ones at least 5 big ones a day and nights are spent throwing the covers off putting the covers back on etc, and if I,m working I,m just soooo hot all the time, if I,m wearing gloves at work which is probably every 5 mins my hands are soaking when I take them off which is infuriating as they are too clammy to put the next pair on so I walk around half the night with large ones on… And then there,s the story about my second armpit… Inside my elbows can you believe! So my thoughts on hot flushes are !<###%! *+^*{!
Nights over till Thursday I,m doing 4 this week and I slept rubbish last night I was soooo hot! I,m finally going to get my shoulder looked at today I,m having an X-ray first to see if there is any damage but I,m still positive it’s nerve damage from BC op, I,ve had the same pain in my shoulder blade since then, and the same ache down my arm and the same pins and needles in my fingers so unless its a coincidence then the X-ray won’t show anything but at least the Dr is starting with an X-ray then see where that leads us!! And to make matters worse its my good old Lymph arm and my right arm and yes I,m right handed so really need to finally get it sorted!
my sister is still in hospital but they are trying to wean her off oxygen today so that’s a good sign
Vikki has finally come to terms with not having a job to go back too, I,m relieved in a way as they did put on her massively and she is a superb chef so when the day finally comes I,m sure she will find another place to work!
Hope the weathers not too bad where you all are though I,m quite enjoying the cool air after such a warm night… How sad is that I,m sat in my little pj,s with the doors wide open and my skin is actually cold loving it!
Flutter gently don’t get those wings damp xxxxxxhugsxxxx
Morning all
Doz - sorry to hear Vickys bad news about the job but perhaps a frest start somewhere else might be a good thing. They don’t sound very compassionate at her previous job. I seem to have missed the hot flushes somewhere along the way (thank goodness by the sound of it). Hope I’m not tempting fate now. Its very damp in Leicester as well today, tho rain now seems to have stopped for the time being. Hope the Xrays ok.
Norm - your miracle grow comment made me laugh as well. I think the FASt shampoo is to actually make hair grow longer not stimulate the hair follicles. My hairdresser advised me to take the skin hair and nail tablets - can’t say as I’ve notice a big difference. My problem is still the crown area but at least I’ ve got hair!
Hugs to everybody
Stella xxx