Why do I feel so low?
Why do I feel so low? Hi there
Sitting here feeling sorry for myself and need to get something out of my system. I am sick and tired of feeling unwell, being in pain and feeling so down. 2 years on from my mastectomy and recon I am still struggling. Lots of pain due to lots of scar tissue as healed too quickly and altho there has been some improvement due to physio and pain killers I feel so lost, angry and fed up.
I am a grump to live with, snapping everyone’s head off all the time, can’t remember the last time I laughed at anything and feel pretty desperate. I am sure all the medication I am taking can’t be doing me that much good but I can’t get through the day with the pain without it…!!! Why does this damn thing take over all your life. When do you begin to feel better? Do you every feel better?
Sorry for winging but I don’t know where to turn. My family are great but I feel they must be sick and tired of me snapping, moaning, crying all the time so I am trying to hide things from them as I worry that they will run out of sympathy at some point. The problem is when I do this I manage to put a big brick wall up between me and the world and shut everyone out…!!!
WHY ME?!! WHY any of us!
Thanks for listening.
Debxx
Sorry you feel so low Deb. I do understand - I am 2 years down the line from diagnosis, did not have mastectomy but had chemo and radio. I am not in pain, well not physically, but can’t seem to shake the fatigue and depression that came after I’d finished treatment. I think of BC as being like a form of slow motion train or car wreck. We are all survivors suffering from post traumatic stress disorder to varying degrees!
And nobody who has not been thru it can understand. I had a really shitty email from my so called best friend as I was not up to driving 80 miles to see her next week and she’s angry. It’s really hurt me.
Anyway chin up and if you move to Thailand maybe you can put it behind you to some extent. I hope the pain lessens over time. 2 years is a long time to put up with it.
Love Sue
Hi Deb
I am so sorry you feel so down. I know how you feel about being in long term pain. Are you getting any advice from your surgeon or anyone about why you are in pain still and what they can do about it?
I am getting help with mine but it has taken a lot of complaining (two and a half years)and visits back to the BC clinic.
I think you need to go back and tell them how the pain is affecting your life.
At least you know you can let off steam on the forums and we will understand and support you as much as we can
Take care
Suex
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Lots of hugs… Hi Deb
Sorry to hear that your feeling a bit low, just to let you know that Im thinking about you and sending loads of hugs…hope to see you at the reunion!
Love Debbiexxxx
dont feel guilty Debjay
DONT feel guilty about feeling tired/fatigued low - no -one at all can understand except the rest of us just how you are feeling.
I’m 16 months on from diagnosis, lumpectomy, mastectomy, chemo and now Herceptin!!! I too feel ‘when does it end’ - I have moments when I don’t even want to get out of bed!!! - it’s really hard when the rest of the world around you are carrying on as normal and you feel stuck somewhere in an abyss!!!. Please keep you chin up and keep posting your thoughts and feelings thats what this site is for - I do it all the time if I’m having a bad day - it just helps to get it down on paper and let the feelings out
Always there for everyone
Clemy XX