I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my right breast 4 weeks ago. It all happened so quick. Last week 21.4.21 I had to have a mastectomy of my right breast I’m devastated that this has happened and I keep asking myself why me. I was sent home a day after my surgery on 22.4.21 with a drain inserted. At first I couldn’t look at the scars but I noticed I have a lump the size of a golf ball to the side of my left breast which I’m told will stay like that then I noticed a massive amount of skin under my left arm which I believe is named a dog ear. I cannot believe I am left like this. The surgeon never explained any of this to me. I feel very alone, scared, disfigured, ugly, tearful, anxious and I don’t know how I am going to get through this. I am due to go and have my drain out tomorrow 29.4.21 then I am due to go back to see my consultant on the 6.5.21 to get results if the cancer has spread to my Lymph nodes they have already removed one. If it has spread that means another operation. Then I await to see what the course of action for treatment which I am told will probably be chemotherapy. I have long hair down my back and its going to devastate me loosing it. Life is so cruel and I keep asking myself why me x
Dear MT1962
My heart goes out to you, your feeling are all very natural,
I wish I could take you pain away. Please don’t hesitate to call the breast nurses on this site as soon as you are ready for a chat, they are so kind, caring and understanding will listen, advise you how to deal with what has happened to you.
Take care of yourself, one day at a time. Keep posting on this site, let us know how you are.
Big hugs Tili 
MT1962 please do speak to one of the nurses on here and they will be able uti help guide you with questions you can take into your meeting. Also discuss future surgery options to help you later on, it is whirlwind you find yourself sucked into when diagnosed with breast cancer and you are flying round in it but you will settle into treatment plan and step by step get through, do use the forum threads too 
everyone helps each other on here it’s what Breast Cancer Now does, cares and shares and helps and with kindness, compassion and understanding. Look into little Princess trust to donate your hair too, for me found knowing my hair would go to help make a wig for a child didn’t feel like a was loosing my hair for nothing, it would help someone else, but remember be kind to yourself and do everything your own way You are in control even if you don’t feel like you are 
Shi xx